"While I was fearing..."

in considering the time that remains to us humans 

to be on this planet (even elon musk will die here)

it occurred to me that as a species we humans can create

things which in no way enhance our ability to survive.

I have been reading and listening  a lot about quantum

mechanics...but I still pretty much wallow in the mundane

world of mechanical physics...the possibilities of possibility

are difficult to realize....but the Planck scale somehow seems

comforting, knowing that when you get right down to it, we

make our own relevancies. what is important?...and how important

is it

so in considering this eternal question I think perhaps once the

rudiments of life are obtained music and the "arts" have relevance.

I read about cave paintings and listen to music of the aboriginals across

the globe and realize that something about engaging in these behaviors

of art and music has had a profound effect on human existence..something

which goes beyond "getting and begetting". 

i recently mentioned a songwriter who describes himself

as a "song and dance man"...Bob Dylan.. and I said his lyrics

are gibberish...some but not all are unintelligible to me. 

"Don't Think Twice" is very intelligible to me and actually

is important and relevant to me. 

Also he wrote a song,  the style and genre of which are what

came to recognized as his forte. The PROTEST song.

The song "Oxford Town" which I heard on an "Oxford

Review" CD from some years ago is appropriate to current

events. I have never heard him sing it anywhere else.

I would also like to recommend a particular tune by a particular

trumpet player whom I had the privilege to hear play at the New

Orleans Jazz museum. All of the concerts are supposed to be recorded

on a video system which is permanently installed in the concert hall

but I do not find the concert for Thursday, August 23, 2018 which

I believe was the day that I heard Mark Braud play "Palm Sunday" from

his "Living the Tradition" album. Mr. Braud is indeed living the tradition

as he is a third generation jazz musician and his family were formative

in the history of jazz music. He said he would like someday for some

of his music to be considered to be iconic as his relatives music is. After

hearing him play "Palm Sunday" I was compelled to relate to him that

I felt that I had just heard a tune which was "iconic" and I felt like I had

witnessed history being made....I could not find this tune played by Mr.

Braud  on the Jazz museum site or YouTube but perhaps it may appear soon.

so despite social unrest and the plague which unfortunately have always

been with us music and art and natural beauty are also...

"While I was fearing it, it came

But came with less of fear

Because that fearing it so long

Had almost made it dear." Emily Dickinson

" Protection , therefore, against the tyranny of the magistrate,"

invasion of privacy

n. the intrusion into the personal life of another, without just cause, which can give the person whose privacy has been invaded a right to bring a lawsuit for damages against the person or entity that intruded. However, public personages are not protected in most situations, since they have placed themselves already within the public eye, and their activities (even personal and sometimes intimate) are considered newsworthy, i.e. of legitimate public interest. However, an otherwise non-public individual has a right to privacy from: a) intrusion on one's solitude or into one's private affairs; b) public disclosure of embarrassing private information; c) publicity which puts him/her in a false light to the public; d) appropriation of one's name or picture for personal or commercial advantage. Lawsuits have arisen from magazine articles on obscure geniuses, use of a wife's name on a hospital insurance form to obtain insurance payment for delivery of a mistress's baby, unauthorized use of a girl's photo to advertise a photographer, and "tabloid" journalism treatment of people as freaks. There are also numerous instances of governmental invasion of privacy such as the Federal Bureau of Investigation compiling files on people considered as political opponents, partially corrected by the passage of the Freedom of Information Act in 1966. The right to privacy originated with an article in the Harvard Law Review in the 1890s written by lawyers "Bull" Warren and future Supreme Court Justice Louis D. Brandeis.

Unauthorized access" entails approaching, trespassing within, communicating with, storing data in, retrieving data from, or otherwise intercepting and changing computer resources without consent. These laws relate to these and other actions that interfere with computers, systems, programs or networks.

sometimes I wake up and take my temperature and wonder if rigor mortise will

be setting in soon...but not yet

as you may know...or not...being too nosy is a crime...and the invasion of

a persons privacy as well as the hacking into their computer is also a crime

big deal right

since my rights apparently do not exist in this here country I

thought I might point out some of the crimes that have been

committed against me in recent times...like right now.

first the fact that I was gassed in my vehicle on federal

property still kind of makes me desirous of retribution...

when I was at the California highway patrol office one

of the employees entered into my vehicle....the same excuse 

is always used...we had to see if he had a gun...why are

they concerned if I have a gun? because I am constantly

being harassed and they figure I may "go off" on someone...

but as long as I have the keyboard grenade why carry a gun?

the woman at the desk in the highway patrol office said 

that there were certain intelligence types (she said TEN people) 

which in current parlance would infer the Criminal Intelligent Agents...

not at all surprising as they seem to have infiltrated most of government

and a lot of businesses.  Yuma Arizona is a very dangerous place to be casual

about constitutional rights as the Marines are stationed there and the Army has

a huge proving ground north of the city...and if these folks give up on the 

constitution we are in a world of hurt...

When I was in the library...as a matter of fact every time I am in their library

my computer is hacked whether it is mine or theirs. Very bad for the constitution.

I feel it is necessary for me to include the motel where my harmonicas

were stolen...3 of them . I have a business card for the motel where I paid $263

for a weeks stay when the temps were above 100 degrees. I want to make 

very sure that when the owner of the TORCH LITE LODGE  said he was

going to make public my "internet searches" if I talked about the theft he was 

acting like he was back in his home country was of India where they stone people to death for eating beef! Extortion is not

a good thing. The fellow upstairs from me kept commenting about my activities

and said "i don't like him and I am going to burn him"...so I suppose the

US attorney for that part of Arizona a Mr. M. Baily could perhaps check the 

records and see exactly who was in that room and what was their relationship

to the owners of this business...my harmonicas were important to me as an 

integral part of my therapy for PTSD which has been brought about by having

my harmonicas stolen and being constantly harassed ...and while I am being critical

of the federals let me also mention the state, county and city yahoos who are illiterate

of the laws as written in the constitution'''every time I have  

been in the pawn shops in Yuma,(and every where else in the this country)

I have been accompanied by a representative of the law...undercover apparently

or the pawn shop gets a phone call

and they advise the pawn shop owner not to sell me a firearm...which

in Arizona is quite a restraint...what with all the 2nd amendment, gunslinger,

right to open carry advocates...I want all my rights..all the time...and I want what

every other person wants...compensation for injustices done to me... 

so now the pin is pulled and the keyboard grenade tossed...

"Protection, therefore, against the tyranny of the magistrate is

not enough; there needs protection against the tendency of society to

impose, by other means than civil penalties, its own ideas and practices

as rules of conduct on those who dissent from them."  John Stuart Mill 

                                                                                "On Liberty"

despite rumors I am not dead

or sick with the virus...yet

"Resentment is like drinking poison..."

    mr coyote came around to ask miss mountain cottontail out for lunch

I spent a week at this spot and the rabbit (Sylvilagus nuttalli) remained in her log

 which was only 20 yards away from my campsite

she got used to the lettuce and bowl of water daily so she did not have to venture

too far from the safety of the log

the coyote suddenly appeared when a black-tailed jackrabbit ran by the campsite

and I think he caught the jackrabbit but I am not sure ....but the cottontail was safe in the 

log when I left this morning...

I have been listening to the news quite a lot to learn what the 

protesters have been doing....

I remember the protests and destruction from the 1960's and some of

the other "civil unrest" in this country....

"When truth conquers with the help of 10,000 yelling people- even supposing

that that which is victorious is a truth; with the form and manner of the victory

a far greater untruth is victorious." Soren Kierkeguard

one of the most dangerous things a person can do 

is succumb to the influence of the "phenomene d' hallucination 

collective" 

"Then does men's life become one vast disease,

when once they seek their ills by ills to cure." Sophocles

there is no defending the killing of a person

by a police officer who does so wantonly

and it has happened too many times to be

viewed as anything but a systemic failure

of policing...

however 167 police committed suicide in 2018

and several hundred thousand cops did not kill

anyone...ever...

"Trauma creates lack of empathy for another's suffering."

                           from "The Hidden Brain"

I contend that any uniformed cop who has been on

the job for a year or more suffers from PTSD

the work is unimaginably stressful and what

has evolved is a predator prey relationship

with many cops...and if you are one of the

people who is not of the same ethic make-up

as the cops you are very likely to become

involved in a self perpetuating 'bad vibe" relationship

which can quickly degenerate into an adversarial

confrontation...and they have guns...

"People are eager to tread underfoot what once they

too much feared." Lucretius

well I have a lot of notes written so I will post

more of my views later...

"Resentment is like drinking poison

and hoping it will kill your enemies"

              NELSON MANDELLA

and he had a lot to be resentful about!