"TAT..."

 photo taken this morning with my recently purchased Nikon D100...came with a nice 18-70mm nikon lens a nice camera bag 2 batteries and battery charger... 6mp...like new $40 bucks...shop thrift stores!

so i need to say something about what gets sold by persons who have podcasts...there is a guy who is very popular who is selling a super duper backback...there are thousands of back-packs in thrift stores...also there is a guy (dr huberman) who is selling a titanium skillet...there are thousands of skillets in thrift stores... don't mean to discredit anyone ( I listen to dr. hubermans health advise as closely than I listen to my own doctor) however! the notion that selling overpriced stuff on line is OK is not OK...recycle or die...

i watched a presentation on youtube @"dig it with raven" entitled "Dear Joe Rogan I'm an Archeologist and ..."(12 min)  this is about debunking the clickbait scammer joe rogan...he claims things on the walls in pyramids are helicopters etc...this guy has muscles in his head where brains should be...now he has to "face the raven"...

now on a more personal level...i seem to be experiencing "death from delay"...colon cancer tests lost in the mail...radiation treatment turned into personal vendeta, cataract surgery deemed un-needed by nurse staff, i am losing faith in the medical component of my life...however...i do get to see medical personell and have a good food budget and the weather is not injurious to my health so i guess i can carry on until i cannot carry on...i saw my medical record recently and i have what are called co-morbidities... i was warned many years ago...you get old, you get sick, you die...well, there is more to it than that...i think it is good to manouver ones existence so as to be happy until the last minute...then get out with some control...

TAT TVAM ASI... 

"Allocation of energy..."

                                          top image is a bird...bottom image is a plant...scrounged around amongst the memories and came across a thumb drive with more images than i wanted to peruse this morning...coffee, coffee my brain cries out for COFFEEEEEE...awoke at 4AM and tried to get the duck browser into the new laptop...bought a MacBook pro at the thrift last week for 50 bucks...13 years old, like new condition...500 GB memory etc etc etc...i like it!   can't make coffee though...

stayed at a spot a half a mile from where i usually stay...nice spot has a large stone fire-ring NO FIRES NO FIRES NO DAMNED FIRES!...still there are forest fires to the south and forest fires to the north and hazy smoke all around...and no rain in sight...these are the unavoidable facts...the weather patterns changing...the numbers don't look good...same ol' same ol'...well at least we can take comfort in the fact that there is a lot of money being made....right!...tell me i'm right...anyhow the social democrats are in office on the east coast and in the middle of the country and now they need an elected official on the west coast...then they can do the pincher maneuver.   certainly no one can be surprised that a rather extreme version of government is being elected...extreme situations call for extreme measures...the difference in the current situation is that the very wealthy are all regular folks...begun with modest financial resources...not royalty...just hard working american ingenuity...combined with greed perhaps...

watched some good youtube last week...ain't no surprise...i hear where there are laws which now make it a criminal offense to allow any human under the age of 16 years to get on "social media"...what the hell is social media!...i would have thought that for a thing to be social there would have to be the ability to be responded to...comments and such...i hope and pray that i am never asking for "LIKES" or thumbs or anybody's nickel or approval or anything else...even a dime will alter the way a person thinks...we be very emotionaly involved with money...as a species...bonobos...not so much...

speaking of money.."only fans model ostracized" (24min) (soft white underbelly)...a 23  year old woman who paid cash for her home and automobiles and has a million bucks in the bank and makes $300 K per month says she was being treated badly for being a sex worker...even more distressing is the interview with Addison Vodka who never said how much money she makes but i imagine a lot...she has been on the internet since she was in elementary school...she likes it a lot...she is the happiest person i have seen being interviewed about her sex work...also an only fans participant as well as a regular maker of commercial videos for the porn industry...she aspires to be "performer of the year"...she likes the job!...however i saw her in an interview later where she looks like she is distraught about the negative comments she has recieved...NEVER LISTEN TO COMMENTS!....BUT i noticed that i was somewhat depressed after watching Ms. Vodkas interview (perhaps she should change her name to Ms.Highball)...i was lamenting the blue funk i was experiencing when i came across Ms MARIA DUMITRESCU or Ria-DMS as she posts under...she is ASEXUAL...she has some excellent presentations...(7 types of attraction most people don't know exist." @ria-dms...i was feeling particularly "dickless" and this world view explained in a very articulate way how many people do not crave a sexual relationship...WHO KNEW!....this is exactly the type of information that the "under 16" crowd need to have access to...it ain't all about penetration!... felt suddenly free from the millions of years of social conditioning that insists "inseminate or die!"...i watched ms Florence Welches video "sympathetic magic" and let it be known I am not responsible for her insemination...i think we should start a campaign to address SCOPOPHILIA...might help...

some non-sexual viewing is Hunter Bidens 2hour and 20 minute interview and his Radical Transparency world view...he presents himself and his sobriety as a victory for those at "rock bottom"...took a lot of courage for him to bare his soul this way on "soft white underbelly"..."can aluminum cans be recycled" @ "jerry rig everything" very good video of how it is done...also i met a fellow who informed me that the DIRE WOLF has been brought back from extinction...this is bunk...and measures a very high number on the "bull shit" scale...for good solid science go to @K passionate...this lady carefully looks at the science and says that Dire wolves are not even wolves but are more closely related to jackals, dholes and African wild dogs...and the clones have zero dire wolf DNA...and i once stated that there was no metal working by the indigenous peoples of north america...however there apparently was a extensive copper culture in pre-historic north america...

got to go and make more coffee...

"Allocation of energy is 90% of the game of life" Dr Andrew Huberman 

 

 

"If your'e a collector..."

                                              stealth cam image of myself...recent

I made a list of the vehicles I have owned...in more or less the order I owned them...I was never an automobile collector...

first vehicle was a 1969 Kawasaki 500 triple motorcycle...I was 18 or 19 years old and had been working as a contract laborer in oil refineries...I paid 500 bucks for it...it was in really nice shape...jack C. who I went to high school with and who was a motorcyclist from way back worked in a motorcycle shop and recommended it to me...I had never sat on a motorcycle before but I did not tell him that...he drove it and pulled the front wheel off the ground in first gear, second gear, third gear and it think forth gear...it had 5 forward gears...I told him I would buy it...we did the paperwork at this shop and when I was about half a mile away it stalled and I had to call him and tell him I did not know how to start it...he came in a truck and picked me and the motorcycle up and asked me if I had ever ridden a motorcycle before...when he showed me how to start the thing, off I went...I should have told him I had driven lots of big trucks and fork-lifts...then I quit the refinery business and moved to the "heart of Acadiana" to drive a van and deliver beauty supplies to salons and barbershops...my next vehicle was a 1962 ford falcon "Futura" with an automatic transmission...I had hitch-hiked to Colorado with a guy who also drove a delivery van where I did and after I hitch-hiked back to Louisiana a girlfriends dad sold me the car for $25 which I had to rebuild the "top-end"...I had never pulled a spark plug from a car so it was a blessing that the high school shop teacher let me do it at the shop and coached me on how to do it...the man was a saint...so the other teachers loathed him...the car made it back to Colorado but then I left it there and hitched back to Louisiana...I enrolled in the university since my father said he would pay the $160 per semester cost...I did well in the first semester but took to partying in the second and then dropped out...I rented a house for about $160 a month way out in the country and bought a 1961? Belair for $75 which was hand painted purple...this vehicle was rear ended when I was pulling into my driveway one day and I retired the car...then I moved closer to town and I got a job as a roustabout on oil rigs working 14 days on and 7 days off...my pay was about $500 for two weeks work...my three room cypress house with a two barns and a fenced paddock was $25 a month... my neighbor had a 1963 ford falcon with three on the column which I bought for $75  bucks...it lasted a month before it crapped out and a fellow sold me a Vega for less than a hundred bucks...I decided I did not want to keep working offshore so I applied for a job with the zoo...I was hired and rented a house in the country for $150 a month... the state police came to the house and took the Vega since I had failed to get any bill of sale or registration...I had to hitch-hike to work every day ... the road to the zoo ran in front of the mayors house and he complained to the police so I was a suspect, a fellow at the zoo said his father wanted to sell his truck and I went to look at it in Plauchevile and paid $900 bucks for a 1968 Chevrolet fleet side truck which was hand painted tugboat green and had  power steering truck...I liked the truck.  I sold the truck and bought a Fiat station wagon then got  a job at another zoo....then I bought a ford f150 then I moved to Nevada took up cooking as a job and bought a 1967 Toyota corona for 50 bucks...neat car...I had 3 vehicles at this time including an older jeep wagoner which I paid $500 for...I had never had a 4-wheel drive vehicle before...the wheel wells were rusted out so when I drove around in the black-rock desert the vehicle would fill up with dust...I left the Toyota with my landlady when I left the country and gave it to her husband in payment for sending my belongings to me when I turned to Louisiana... I think that mass transit makes more sense than trying to maintain a vehicle in many cases...I was collecting books and records and loaded my Chevrolet truck with all my stuff and traveled the country from Florida to California to Oregon to Wyoming then to Alabama . I traded my Chevrolet truck for a Datsun 510 station wagon in Oregon ..one of the best vehicles I have ever owned...I sold it in California when I went to Australia where I saw that they still made ford falcons...when I returned to the USA...I became a merchant marine and after a year I had saved enough money to by a motorhome for 3000 bucks which I had for 5 years...then I bought a 1994 Toyota pickup truck which had 315,000 miles on it when it was rear ended and totaled by a semi-truck...I bought a small school bus with the insurance money but it was a poor off road vehicle so I sold it and bought a 1991 Toyota previa van for...I think 1600 bucks which had 315,000 miles on it when I sold it 5 years ago...the woman who bought it still drives it...I bought a 2004 ford f150 for 6700 bucks when I sold the Toyota van and still drive this truck...

recently I had my storage unit stolen from me by what Kash Patel accurately describes as "government gangsters"...after 25 years of having this storage unit it contained a lot of "collectibles"...

"If you're a collector you're a sick, obsessive, compulsive person, who would sell your grandmother to buy something you really like, even if its something like an Elvis plate." from a YouTube presentation on book collectors 

"As Sleigh Bells seem in summer..."

 this is me tapping on a metal vibra-phone...I like the simple instruments...I have come to believe that simple music Is best

some good YouTube music I found is Daryle Singletary (who is dead now) but he had a magnificent baritone voice great for the country tunes he sang...most of his songs were heart-breakers..."she is cheating' on both of us" is a good example...also I was listening to some older music by the band "Squeeze" and found "Cool for cats" to have some great lyrics and the instrumentation was far ahead of its time...a couple of great bluesmen are PinkAnderson playing 'I got a woman" and Floyd Council playing "Looking for my baby"...heard those names before?...lets get to some science..."Why Chinese AI is suddenly so good"(43 min) @asian boss...well presented and with good detail..."The mysterious discovery of the Bad Durrenberg skeleton" (46 min) by Milo (minderbender) Rossi is excellent on several levels...he explains the Nazi approach to propagandizing science and how early archaeology was not very helpful in preserving information...AND mr Rossi has spit out the sponsorship tit and is relying on his viewers support..buy that poster!...good on ya mate!...Emilia Evans has a good presentation on the evolution of elephants...she mentions tapirs being about the size of one of the extinct elephant ancestors...I have worked with Malayan tapirs and Brazilian tapirs but no mountain tapirs...they are not the same size...but the "elephant in the room" is whether the man who is "The elephant of explanation" is an AI creation...and some tech presentations which are worth the time are "The killer behind data centers in space" by Anastasi in Tech (30 min) sort of rips E Musks space ambitions...he may be selling tulip bulbs...if you want to see another big project gone wrong look up "The Wall" a much overly ambitious development in Saudi Arabia...a short but interesting presentation about physics is "A better way to picture atoms"(6 min) @minutephysics..."You can't cut a photon" @neverthoughtitthatway...this guy addresses some good thoughtful questions...and back to sex...always back to sex...there is an excellent article in may 2026 Natural History magazine entitled "Sex is a spectrum; why the binary view is problematic" by Augustin Fuentes very informative...

"As Sleigh Bells seem in summer / Or Bees at Christmas show-/ So fairy-so fictitious-/ The individuals do/ Repealed from Observation-/ A party that we knew-/ More distant in an instant/Than Dawn in Timbuctoo."....Emily Dickinson

"Backward I see..."

 new material...not obsidian but sandstone...the groove is for sinew cleaning...this is the only tool i have found made of this material...indigenous creativity...

DRAMA!...for some reason the laundromats seems to attract drama...a couple of weeks ago as i knelt in front of the washer that had my clothes in a woman stood next to me and said something in a loud voice in the spanish language...dramatically! and used her phone to film me...i heard she posted her video with the complaint that i had "touched" her...i can't be too concerned about these folks who seem to want everyone to pay the tribute money...i'm an american...i don't pay!...when i went to the hospital to pick up my cancer medications ,as i walked towards the door i saw a small black square fabric container on the pavement and i picked it up and saw it was used to hold credit cards etc...i walked into the pharmacy and told the lady working there i had just found it on the ground outside...she asked me if i had seen the security guard outside and i had not...she took the card holder and i went upstairs to get my meds...after a short wait i got my meds and when got into the elevator and there was a fellow with his son who rode down with me...he looked like the fellow who i encountered a while back who seemed to be some sort of lame security...a lot of these guys are "off duty" police who don't like me very much...as i write this the dirty cops drive by and turn on their sirens...this happens a lot... today in the laundromat a a scruffy fellow said something very rude about me to some of the people in the laundromat...one of the many stalkers...he is a standard issue punk...get a life!...

i watched some very good youtube presentations recently...a hopeful view about opportunities due to satellite communications is "A billion people are about to transform the internet (24 min) by dr hannah fry @business...she is in africa with people who are now able to get current information for educational purposes...i hope mr musk does not loose his money as he fixates on making humans "multi-planet" dwellers...i am happy to be an earthling...the current weather extremes should be a wake-up call for the modification of human endeavors...SEX!...like it does not get enough attention...several of these presentations have linking threads so i will start with "China's war on porn and it's unintended consequences" (25min)@ the louis zhao...this fellow takes a very thoughtful look at what he calls "gooners"...folks who look at porn and engage in self-gratification (masturbate) he views the prohibition on viewing porn in china as making the population "cross the wall" which creates a strong "criminal" element...he puts the desire for sex into an evolutionary perspective...and there is the interview on "soft white underbelly" "Glory hole girl- skye" (16min) with a woman who is 31 years old and has been selling sex since she was 16 years old...her story is interesting because of what she says about her relationship (or lack thereof) with her father...the interviewer asks her "What kind of things have you learned about men from being a sex worker for so long? answer= "I've learned how much guys really think with their dicks"...damn! not much uplifting there!...i came across a woman named "Teal Swan" who had a presentation called "Containment-what a woman needs from a man"(20min)...this presentation made sense to me however i found a lot of negative responses to the entire body of work of this woman...mr todd grande has a 17 min presentation called "Is teal swan a cult leader"...i think mr grande may be a cult leader!...

past my bedtime...got to go...

"Backward I see in my own days where i sweated through fog with linguists and contenders,                                                                                                                      I have no mockings or arguments...i witness and wait." Walt Whitman "Leaves of grass" 1855 edition

"More weight..."

 from long ago and far away...did all the animals die from communicable disease?

the sound is off on the television...but C-Span has much talking heads...listening to dr huberman being interviewed by mr c. williamson on youtube...they both have sponsors...i ain't buying nuthin'...hot sauna to ice bath...lift weights. how many trucks have they unloaded?...no telling...i guess few...my muscles came from being a "day laborer"...thoreau recommends it...don't commit to a "shit job"...not much financial incentive...i made about 38 bucks to unload a truck...why can't mr musk or mr, somebody with money and expertise put together "workbook" for people who seek work...facebook ain't much for employment...

i am being stalked across town and to my medical appointments by women with hate in their eyes...screw them!...the dirty girls don't like me...not one little bit...they have infiltrated all aspects of society...government...medical...and they get kickback from all the thrift stores...serious bummer...the woman in charge of monitoring and investigating organized crime in this state is asleep at the wheel...serious bummer...so that is this mornings venting,,,you can get double your money back if you are dissatisfied...

now for some controversy...i doubt if i would attend the fights being promoted by the executive branch of government...how ever...i recently found MONA KIMURA a young Japanese fighter who KICKS ASS!...literally...she is a small woman who is trained in boxing and karate and uses her feet to win her matches...there is a Japanese guy who is in a light weight class who has the same tenacity and wins a lot of matches,,,i like the female and light class fighting much better than the heavy weight classes...i also watched the Belmont stakes horse race where the horse GOLDEN TEMPO went from last place to win by a foot or two...this horse has a woman trainer...it was a hell of a race..."Lazy"..by "Strange Kind of Women" is a good song and King Crimson "Industry: from a 1984 concert on Tokyo is pretty....well industrial...Rainbow Girls "sixth grade girlfriend" is interesting...i like all of the "George Gently" british 90 min. murder detective stories..."The haunting world of schizophrenic art" is a good look into an interesting mental ailment (24 min)+ "Inside Hull-Oakes: the last giant steam powered saw mill still cutting logs" (30 min)...it is fascinating to me how relatively primitive machinery was so sophisticated..."Histories biggest slavers- not who you think" (9min) is a well researched bit of history...lots of folks in the slave trade through-out history @ money markets and more...

the head of the executive branch of the U.S. government is getting a lot of negative press these days... i saw him talking with some fisher folks yesterday about opening up thousands of square miles to fishing...when i was enslaved on a salmon tender off the alaska coast on a salmon processing boat i was told where we were had been closed to fishing for the previous 5 year due to over-fishing...it happens...the science indicates that most of the worlds fish populations are very reduced...as it happens most of the human population has increased...is there a correlation?... 

i was told that "vendetta" means wait...perhaps so.

"MORE WEIGHT!" the last words of mr giles corey the only person to be killed by crushing to death (1692) at the salem witch trials

 

"I pass death..."

 the color wheel shows the different colors and their closeness to each other

everything leaves behind some evidence of their having passed by

i read about a guy who stabbed a fellow student in the the chest and killed him...he was tried in a court of law and found guilty of murder...he was on the "black spectrum"...i did not hear what his sentence was...he has been unlucky enough to have been included in the current "anti-black" sentiment...i read a very good article in "Natural History" magazine (july/august 2025) "food for thought"...this article says "What then are the cognitive abilities that allow humans to come together to form large cooperative social groups? There are many, but a few are notable. Impulse control is key to future oriented behavior that is the cornerstone of sharing." the scientific research indicates that humans use 20% of their energy in the brain...for children age 5 and under it is 66% of their energy which is used by the brain...when i hear that some folks want to stop providing nutrition assistance for school kids i think it might be a good investment to feed the kids daily...

housing seems to be in the news daily because so many people struggle to find affordable housing...Thoreau said he thought sleeping in a coffin-like tool box would be a good idea...Tee-Pees he liked also...i have worked on construction sites where "MC-Mansions " were being built (large houses with the pretense of opulence)...well i suppose a person has a lot of psychological baggage to deal with when they choose a place to live... 

i came across a few good sites on youtube one of which is @Taboo Education" lets talk death" this aussie woman has some largely ignored subjects "Why you need to stop saying "committed suicide" (5 min)...i think she is a mortician

@hysteria podcast seems to be "unbalanced professional haters" these girls certainly have no love at all for J. Kusher...they may even be prejudiced!

also there is a very upbeat interview with one of the inventors of Virtual Reality namely Jaron Lanier "Father of VR the best AI future nobdy is talking about @Hope Existential (51 min)

i came across a movie which is one of the funniest i have ever seen...before you view this movie i must warn that if you suffer from COULROPHOBIA this movie may trigger you...it is apparently an Irish made movie,,,"APOCALYPSE CLOWN (1hour and 38 min) i have watched it several times as the dialogue is quick...one of the main characters is Jennie Malone of Viral Load Media...she is one of the only none clowns although she is a confirmed "clown fucker". this movie is well worth the time..."Funzo" deserves an academy award...

on  more serious note...the film-maker Raphael Treza has put together "Bengal Danger" about his time in india...(53 min) what beautiful women!

"I pass death with the dying and birth with the new-washed babe...and am not contained between my hat and boots./ And peruse manifold objects, no two alike, and every one good./ The earth good, and the stars good and their adjuncts all good "...Walt Whitman from the 1855 edition of "Leaves of Grass"