"A man can't stay angry..."

                                       life got better...couldn't resist at a buck a pint!

made the eye doctors appointment...tests indicate I am not blind...eyesight is not good...surgery may be needed...whatever...the window doctors were efficient and replaced the busted door window...yeah!...bought  a new propane hose...I hope it solves the problem...

been watching the Olympic "curling" competition in Italy...the Scottish people should be ashamed to have invented this so called sport...this is not the only absurdity I have noticed recently...McDonalds burger joint is now offering caviar with a $25 gift certificate...bad choices available for all...AND! I see where already addiction prone kids can get a Pokémon/Legos fix...

so I have changed my mind about Artificial Intelligence being beyond my capacity to utilize it...I have listened to about 3 hours of the 4 1/2 hour presentation on Lex Fridmans podcast called "Future of AI and the state of the art in 2026" he has a couple of young experienced authors and master programers/coders who go into great detail about various and assorted current aspects of AI...about 75% of this was unintelligible to me but the 25% or so that made sense made me believe that I...yes even my tiny brained self could benefit from using AI...but I think I need to learn which questions are relevant and how to ask them before I can benefit from my expenditure of time and energy...It is pretty mind expanding to begin to understand the extent of this new technologies scope...like the invention of the wheel...where can this take you?...

"Woman becomes Part of elephant herd" wild Thailand  BBC earth (6 min) is a good example showing what the right approach to animal relationships can result in...very inspiring..."Using play to rewire and improve your brain" from Huberman lab is a well done presentation...I have been listening to Samuel Johnsons Rambler essays as read by David Benson...if you want to listen to a master writers language skills there is none better than Samuel Johnson..."Crime pays but botany doesn't" is less of the queens English but a lot of impressive latin that this train engineer/botanist uses to describe his encounters with plant life...Python Cowboy has a lot of video of him and his crew and his dogs rooting out invasive pythons in Florida...pretty fast moving..."Why we are raising 100 plus guinea pigs to mow our blueberry garden"...thats a lot of guinea pigs!...I am not sure if they considered it a success or failure...it was certainly an adventure...especially when the guinea pigs began to escape....(13min)...

well some music is needed here...you remember Clario? ms. "Sexy to somebody"...she is now sexy to everybody...a veritable siren, an enchantress and unabashed coquette..."Clario live at Lollapalooza 2025 is here strutting her stuff...and doing it quite well!...you know I listen to Ella Langley and she has a lot of tunes and most of them are about her being less than satisfied with her relationships...such as "Damn You!"...well she is a great songwriter none the less...

"A man can't stay angry for five years...can he?...Marlon Brando as Rio in a conversation with Sheriff Longwood after Brando had spent 5 years in prison...unknown to the sheriff..."One eyed Jacks"  is the only movie that Brando ever directed...it is a classic...

this is not a drill?

"You are welcome to be..."

                    it doesn't add up!

windy as hell this morning from about mid-night until I drove out of the desert at one PM...I did not even setup the stove to make coffee this morning...fortunately the skies were clear but the temperature was going to be in the mid-eighties...way too warm!....the propane hose for the stove apparently sprung a leak at the fitting and flames were blasting from beneath the stove which was disconcerting to say the least...and the wind blew the mosquito netting covering the window from atop the truck and the large magnet holding down the netting (pretty damned inventive) was dragged causing the magnet (pretty damned inventive) to fall off the edge of the roof of the truck and somehow busted the truck door window on the drivers side (pretty damned stupid!) anyhow if it ain't one thing it's something else!...a couple of days ago captain goober showed up and parked his van about 200  yards away...I think watching him peer through the tree limbs as if he were a retarded detective made me hope a poisonous spider would bite him on his private parts...ten thousand acres of desert and this goober  commits the ultimate faux pas in the desert...DON'T CROWD PEOPLE!...I expect to be under scrutiny in Yumertonville as I have spoken openly about the very real corruption (it's everywhere)...I probably need to enhance my security...especially online...I think since I do not copywrite my blog some folks figure stealing my notebooks is OK too...as well as my photography...well I ain't ready to give up my blog therapy yet so I will do the best I can with my very flawed security...been up since 4 this morning (when BBC news comes on the radio) so I am getting ready to crawl into the bed and listen to some music...I have come across some great music on YouTube lately..."Tuba Skinny" "Papas got your bathwater on" is a great tune from "The little brown church" (whoever they are) this song seems to have some "double intention" kind of thing going on...also Sierra Ferrell does some great recording in "The littlest Honky Tonk" (which is a horse trailer) at the Calgary folk festival her rendition of "Give it Time' (3:46) this is Ms. Ferrell at her best...she plays her guitar and is almost solo on the vocals so her excellent voice comes through very well...I also watched David Choes' latest commentary on life "Everyday is a chance to start over"...someone said that William Faulkner was the literary equivalent  of Hieronymus Bosch...that being the case I think David Choe might be the artist equivalent of Charles Bukowski...maybe...there is so much doom and gloom on the internet I have found it refreshing to look at people who are making things better..."Cobbler G" takes well worn boots and shoes and refurbishes them excellently...this cobbler has attitude!...also "Girl with the Dogs" is braver than me and one of the best dog whisperers I have seen...her redo of the giant wolfhound is impressive...."Growtreesorganic" is a fellow who has high desert property in Arizona and he shows how he patiently re-adjusts the topography to hold water and thus grow desirable vegetation...and Jay Leno Garage does a review of a electric truck called the "SLATE"...which is due to be sold within a year...this truck is remarkable in a lot of ways and should sell for about $25K and is made in USA...check it out...I watched "Ball of Fire" a 1941 Howard Hawks movie with Gary Cooper and Barbara Stanwyck  (what a hot babe!) an excellent movie...

"You are welcome to be a domestic extremist, so long as your extremism remains safely domesticated" Herbert Marcuse
 

"In order build a career..."

not a 68K yr old cave painting...not from some ancient peoples....but not uncommon in the desert

             I have been hearing a radio notice asking folks to promote this area...dates are cheaper here than anywhere else in the USA...actually I think this is from a date farm out in a rural area...but 2 bucks a pound for fresh dates is a damn good price...it is worth the ride...also the temps are worth mentioning since I had to put on my air conditioner in the truck yesterday...maybe 74 degrees...it seems to me that since there are a couple of airports here a person could fly into Yumertonville and get a room for a month and thaw out...if you are a spy or something like that (there are a lot of spies here since there is a marine corp air station) you maybe can get special spy discount...but the bus service is almost non-existent so you might want to rent a car...there are a lot of activities for the so called snow-birds so don't be a stranger to the desert...enough of that..

I have been waiting for the news to bust loose with the earth shattering news about VL-JEPA (Joint Embedding Predictive Architecture) which I was alerted to by a post by Julia McCoy...her alter ego is Dr. McCoy and she wears a star trek shirt...but don't be alarmed...maybe a little alarmed...anyhow Yann LeCun who was Metas chief of AI has begun to promote this innovation in computation...I am not well versed enough to understand all of the intricacies of this change in computer architecture but there are several good presentations on YouTube which indicate a much improved method ....uses less energy too

one of the most common advertisements on the YouTube presentations is the promotion of bath soaps, deodorants and other scent related products....it seems that we are being told that people stink....this is a fiction....people smell like any other mammal might smell....Animalogic posted a piece about maned wolves recently and we had this species in a zoo I worked in...they have a strong smell which is normal for them....also the binturongs have a strong smell...and the tamanduas have a strong smell...and many others also...I think people are so used to perfumes that when they smell  a person without artificial  scents they think the person is dirty or un-cleaned or  flawed...not so....also all people do not smell the same...I imagine back before there were a lot of perfumed people a person could differentiate between different peoples aroma....

as usual the clash of "security" with "citizens" has led to fatalities....I repeat...DO NOT CONFRONT...you may think you are going to change things but you are mistaken...many if not most of the people in uniforms have PTSD ok...they are as fearful of being damaged as the protestors...they are law enforcement...what are they doing?... they are enforcing the law....please do not inflame the situation more than it is already inflamed...yes mistakes have been made...only a live person can point this out...stay alive

some good YouTube presentations I watched recently are "jungle wildlife rescue/the junglekeeper podcast" (30min) this guy seems to be doing good work and I may send him $5...he is wearing a tamandua t-shirt...the lesser anteater...he is right about elephants...they have more going on with  intelligence than most people who have never walked next them and felt their "vibrations" will ever know..."Before Electricity;Inside a water powered sawmill that still works today"-RaW machines(32min)..."Nutmeg. mace and the four small islands that changed the world" (1hr 51min) OTR food and history...this is a fascinating account of how much society will pay for spices....back then nutmeg was worth as much as gold..."The most terrifying man in the Vietnam war"(13min) @DarkDocs...this is about a fellow nick-named "MAD-DOG"...for a good reason...he was an effective killer...

I am watching a short piece on the news about some kid who is sueing various online businesses which he claimed cause him discomfort? because he paid more attention to a screen than to nature...nature is the cure for screen damaged brains...wake up people! the internet (social media) is not the problem...the problem is "balance" in ones sensory input...

watched some good music also...I might as well confess...I just watched the grammy nominations and I did not recognize one single person nominated...anyhow to offset the extreme bass of "crash test dummies'  I would like to recommend "The Froobsons" "the running kind"(the French family band...they are actually from Australia I think)..this kid has a great voice...the song I think is from M. Haggard...also "Why are you following me" By Emanuella Hutter from Hillbillie Moon Explosion is quite creative...this woman has a lot of talent...and some mystery!...

"In order to build a career and to be successful one has to be ambitious. I much prefer to drink coffee, listen to music, and paint when I feel like it." Saul Letter (photographer) great stuff

                                                    new word...TENEBRISM

"...I beg your pardon I'm not quite clear..."

this is the only pottery i have ever found...i am not sure which native peoples were in this area...i have walked many miles across the desert floor in this area and since there were/are so many gold miners in this area as well as 4 wheelers and also military training operations i suppose if any artifacts have survived it is damned near a miracle...

this is the only certain tank track i have ever seen...a real artifact crusher...

there is a term called allelopathy which a guy on youtube used to describe creosote plants which drop their leaves which poison the soil beneath them to keep other plants from growing...however!...i saw some vegetation shoving through the soil beneath several creosote bushes...according to an article in Smithsonian magazine (i think) the creosote plant was brought here from Argentina 10 to 15 thousand year ago...anyhow after looking at this plant beneath a creosote bush i think it has no chlorophyl...a very strange plant indeed...

i bought this nice pair of rubber shoes for 2 bucks...i rarely shuffle my feet..but i do sometimes..."I beg your pardon,I'm not quite clear about what you just spoke, was that a parable or a very subtle joke?...from "God shuffled his feet" by the Crash test Dummies...one of my favorite songs

"military discipline is not..."

things change...everything can get cracked...

some things even wobble...and get out of focus...

and we can often be little more than tracks in the sand...

we are little more than shadows in eternity...well thats about enough of temporal philosophic musings...but ms. Sabine Hossenfelder has a good presentation called "I believe the future already exists' (13 min)...some food for thought...Dr. Huberman has a good practical bit of advise called "optimize your workspace for maximum productivity" (30 min)...and since there seems to be some disagreement in the ranks of government a good historical acount of this is "Why american soldiers started killing their own officers in vietnam" by simon whistler at 'into the shadows'...this just in on the radio..european nations sending troops to greenland... interesting developement...also a good presentation but very well done is "3 best and 3 worst chicken breeds" opinions of a breeder and homesteader (10 min)i am not sure why she kept the worst chicken breed but this illustrates the several thousand year quest to improve domestic animal characteristics...also the third shakespeare play discussed by "Philosophize this" (#243)presenter steven west is about Hamlet..a deep dive into the philospophy and psychology of this play..very well done... you have to pay attention or the important stuff gets by you...and "the genetic history of europe" with j.Krause(20 min)this guy points out that immigration and migration has always been a part of human history...get over it!..."I built 50 boxes for wildlife-here's what happened" the wildlife homestead...a good look at what human enhancement of the environment can do to improve the lives of wildlife (we are the ones that made it worse for critters)...i heard on "birdnotes" that ms. Ricki Lee in new orleans is putting out water and groceries for the birds...glad to hear it!..."What reading does to your brain" on "closed stacks" (9min)..some good information here...and i must comment on music and its effects on my mood...the Adele song "someone like you" as presented at her royal albert hall concert always makes me cry...and apparently half the people in the audiance are similarly effected...the Santana @woodstock tune "soul sacrifice" always makes me inspired and the XTC tune "dear god" makes my angry ...i don't know why...most of the stuff on "postmodern jukebox" is well done and i really like "ain't no rest for the wicked" featuring Joey Cook and "all about that bass" is a good bit of music and vocals... "...military discipline is not a given, it is a fragile contract, based on legitamacy. When its moral authority, in the eyes of its own soldiers, when the mission seems pointless, the leadership seems indifferent, and the sacrifice seems unequal, that contract disolves." from "Why american soldiers started killing their own officers" on youtube

"Our ideal should be..."

my assistant the RAVEN...i was looking at some dates and the last time i posted a blog was on christmas...that hotel has been sold and the price of a room increased by $22 per night...so back here at the curryville arms...one of the things about living alone in the desert is one gets to better allocate ones time to such endeavors as one feels have priority...less people is more better... i thought a lot about the woman who was shot dead by the US government employee...my personal opinion is that there has been a "PHASE CHANGE" in our society...such as when ice turns to water and water turns to steam...same chemical make-up but sustantialy different materials...in the USA today the notion that "protests" however "legal" they might be are safe is exceptionaly short-sighted...i remember Pat Buchanan saying that at Kent State there were 18 year old national guard members and 18 year old protesters...the shootings that happened could have been predicted...group think is never the same as individual think...people behave differently when around other people...it is the responsibility of every person to be their own safety advisor...once a person is dead or maimed the chance to be safe is past...the commander in chief urging the Iranians to keep protesting is remakably ill advised...this country has turned its' back on others in similar situations...safety first...a dead protester is a good thing for the oppressors...safety first...

the temperature today was about 80 degrees which is warmer than average for here...the wind has been pretty steady for the last couple of weeks so less walking in the desert and more sitting in the drivers seat reading or looking at the screens (i have several screen options)fortunately i am able to avert my eyes a few inches and i can see for miles across the desert which makes my eyes and vision less damaged from eye strain...(i hope) i drove north to KOFA national wildlife refuge and went to the palm canyon entrance but the spot i usually stay at was occupied and i set up a couple of hundred yards to the west...

i don't know the name of these mountains but they are always dramatic to look at...then into quartzite where i bought 2 new pillowcases for 50 cent each then to the scratched and dented food store where i bought some necessities like whole bean coffee and chocolate...then back to the old site where i enjoyed the below average temps despite the gusty winds...i encountered several youtube presentations which joggled my brain and made me think...about sex...now for a guy like myself who has been deprived of testosterone for several years now to think about sex it has to be in the abstract...i was thinking i might put together a sort of description of myself and post it online to see if there might be any female persons who would be interested in spending time with me...so of course the "dickless" nature of my person might be described as "a feature, not a bug" so to speak...i was actually surprised at how many female persons would welcome a man without "turgidity"...another "feature" might be "intermittant dentation"...the lack of "disposible income" must also be mentioned as well as the minimal housing...a pick-up truck is however preferable to a tent perhaps...personality compatability seems unlikely as i have been without female companioship for...well, a damn long time...however...actually i cannot think of any positive aspects to spending time with me...and i do not take criticism well at all...i guess if i care to admit it the best thing i could do for a woman is stay away from her...damn!...the harsh light of reality shows a lot of room for improvement...but enough about me lets move on to sex...orion taraban posted another of his "one size fits all" evaluations entitled "Women are dirty: understanding their dark desires" (12 min) also there was post called "The dirtiest services ancient roman brothels listed on their walls" (27min)NSFW HIstorian...i am not sure but i think these references to "dirt" are not about soil. mud, or other impurities...i think these are subjective and biased views of people who are seeking voyeristic attention...the woman who posted the piece on the unearthd brothel in Pompeii repeatedly expressed the view that the women who were providing sex were somehow less than equal in every way to the other citizens...that does not make them "dirty"...as long as i am on the Pompeii subject i would like to recommend "The discovery that rewrote Pompeii" by "miniminuteman" AKA Milo (minderbender) Rossi...this presentation is packed to the brim with information and illustrates the need to be accurate in scientific investigations...and to close out the subject of relationships i would like to recommend Cal Smiths "An hour and a six-pack" for sentimental views..."Our ideals should be to make our battles a series of single combats, our ranks a happy alliance of agile commanders-in-chief." T.E. Lawrence "seven pillars of wisdom"

"You've learned the most important..."

I guess my life is more prosperous
my storage unit appears to have been "appropriated" by criminal factions...I was in flagville two months ago or so when I left the post office with my USPO money order and put it into the envelope to mail and drove up to the mailbox and there was a fellow there who was standing behind the mailbox and he  stuck his hand out and took my envelope with the storage unit money order payment...I thought that was odd but I had not figured the criminal element in government was quit so overtly criminal...I got a returned envelope with a payment money order last month...wrongly addressed. For 25 years these payment have been made every month...that is more than a third of my life...anyhow I would have thought that an honest postman would (after 25 years) just put the envelope into the right mailbox...but no!...now I must admit for me to have been stalked to Australia and Mexico I should have known that there is no deed to dastardly for these folks to commit...I tried many times to call the storage facility  but apparently my number was being blocked...I pulled into Audubon Self Storage probably in 2001 and unloaded my holiday rambler motorhome into unit #152...on the first day the alpha male major unit renter... I think he had more than 22 units at the time...most of which he did not pay the rent on...was a metal salvage guy mostly and bought many pallets of computers at the state surplus auction every month...he had some compulsive addictive behaviors connected to his acquisitions...he validated his worth according to how much stuff he had...another fellow who had the same addictive personality had a large fenced in lot jammed full of similar auction stuff and he died unexpectidly and mr "sticky fingers" smith (he never used his real name) went to this guys place across town and attempted to steal some of this dead guys stuff...he was caught and held and I think charged with trespass and maybe attempted theft...he had a pretty raging pornography habit and was investigated for "improper" porn and I think made to get counseling...he was also investigated for shipping restricted computer parts to china...so despite all his blathering about his Christianity it was apparent to me that he was a victim of his own making...anyhow on day one mr smith informed me that the facility was "military" and he used to bang around metal components to impress me with that fact...he bought into a lot of current social conditioning...once he showed me a storage unit which was on the corner of a row and inside was a collections of things he said belonged to his "dead" brother...he failed to mention that it was his twin brother...the only people I know who use twins in their "intel" work is the military...but many of the 18 intel organizations may use twins also... I had seen this brother a couple of times but did not place him as a twin...he is a few pounds heavier and has a tattoo of a feather tied to his leg with a thong...you might have seen him around...or not...I do have a photo of mr smith which I took some years ago...the first manager named BOB was on good terms with mr smith as mr smith had his compulsive addictive stuff from one end of the property to the other...after bobs wife began staying away from home for days on end he got discouraged and left with an airstream travel trailer...good guy when he was sober...then the owners son-in-law arrived and started to clean the place up...he worked for years breaking his ass to get the property mowed and painted and put in security cameras  and do what is supposed to be done at a legit storage facility...eventually mr smith was banned from bidding at the auction perhaps due to non-payment...mr smith used to tell me that the owner did not pay taxes on all the money he took in... the new manager used to tell me that he had not got a raise since he started working there...the beer cans were piling up in the garbage every day...once I came to the placed there was a hispanic guy who appeared to be living there in a storage unit a few units down from my own...mr smith said he was there because his roommates were noisy and this guy also claimed to be in the military...army and marines specifically...some other latino men told me he had killed people...mr smith said the mans truck had been stolen with all of his identification...interesting...my theory is that this guy who was called "Roberto' by the latest manager...mr Roberto probably was on the run from charges of homicide which he committed while working for some Latin American military...maybe one of those guys who went in and killed all the villagers to get their land...anyhow records of any kind were scarce to non existent at this storage facility...mr smith was a criminal on many levels...the records for the place burned up in an electrical fire and in the flood of 2016 the records were destroyed in the flood...mr smith had a "special" friend who bought stuff compulsively and had two city busses in a fenced in part of the property...I think my payments were going to pay for his 'special' friends storage rent...once when I drove my van to my storage unit there was mr. smith and a fellow in an "Entergy" truck chopping electrical cables as large as my wrist into two foot lengths...mr smith said he got half of the money he made on the Entergy deals...probably unbeknownst to the utility company's management...when I was at a yard sale in Veneta Oregon I ran into mr smiths twin brother all he said was 'lets do this thing"...the point of all this storage unit remembering is because although my unit #152 had already been searched it was felt by the criminal class that I had "illicit" items in the unit...specifically illicit porn, illicit drugs and illicit weapons...all of these suspicions were based on very poor and prejudiced intel (and deep dis-like for me personally) I had one of those gunstock camera holders which when it was viewed while folks peeked into the unit from the unit behind mind and the porn delusion was just a shot (if not in the dark then in the fading light) and the drugs suspicion stemmed from my long association with pot as a pot addict...a porn addict also...anyhow the unit was recently broken into and searched and nothing criminal was found...unbelievably many folks thought I had a large sum of cash, money, dinero, moola even...right! I was going to wait until money was worth more...sound financial move eh?...anyhow,  after being victimized, scandalized and if mr smith had his way sodomized, I realized it was foolish of me to expect for my "stuff" to be safe...something in the christian bible about theft and rust and other calamities that will happen to stuff...but I must explain the photograph...when I was about 19years old I hitchhiked to Colorado...the guy I hitched with stayed there while I went back to la. and worked to save money and picked mushrooms, after a few months I had filled half a cooler with frozen 'shrooms and had rebuilt the top end of my 1962 ford falcon which I had bought from my friends dad for $25 and after some additional transmission shifting work I headed back to Colorado very little money, no spare tire , insurance probably not, no heater and when I hit a bump the window would fall down...this was in the fall and as everyone knows then you are 19 you are invincible...I got as far as Colorado Springs when the money was gone and I tried to trade some mushrooms for some gas...the cooler of mushrooms was stolen while I talked to the station attendant ...I realize there was nothing I could do...Call the police! I don't think so!...I drove up to the highway and parked on the side of the road and slept a fitful sleep....I awoke at dawn and started the car and saw that water was pouring out of the engine block...I assumed it was a cracked block...(it was actually a blown cold plug which I had never heard of...) ok ...I stand on the side of the road with my thumb out and my harmonica in my other had... I felt as free and unburdened then as I have ever felt in my life...so now I have three harmonicas and probably way too much stuff....but, I think it is the responsibility to expose criminality of the sort that has targeted me for so many years...I want payment for my lost property, I want payment for pain and suffering as I had unreplaceable items of a personal nature in my unit and punitive damages....I have tried to be patient and for nought...revenge is best served cold...eat up!

"You've learned the most important jailhouse lesson and most valuable underground skill- you've learned to  "HOLD YOUR MUD".           ken Kesey "jailhouse journals"