bootlegcircus
Saturday, July 18, 2026
"Livin' easy..."
Thursday, July 16, 2026
"Trust through total transparency.."
made my way to the radiology unit to have sinuses imaged...fast efficient and professional...
i must confess to perusing yet another thrift store or two...i have concluded after half a century or more of shopping thrift stores that perhaps my reasoning was a bit flawed...as a small child i used to sit with my siblings looking at a sears catalogue which was between us and play "look what i got!"...seemed pretty harmless at the time...however as most compulsive/addictive behaviors seem to be rooted in some experiences from ones past i imagine that being in a household with a dearth of money and therefore a dearth of possessions established the idea that more stuff was more better...i met a couple of men who as children faced near starvation as children during WW2...these men were both quite fat due to the uncontrolable urge to eat...however if you are interested in compulsive behavior modification HubermanLab has a great youtube presentation "the treatment of obsessive compulsive disorder" (OCD)(32min)...
where was i?...oh yes i have decided that "collecting" only exacerbates my OCD tendencies so i have determined that the only thing worth "collecting" is ideas...it has been said (i think in buddhism) that the only thing a person owns is their "deeds"...whoa buddy!...that's a lot of heavy lifting...i did pick up a very nice pair of Steiner 12X40 binoculars for $10 at the thrift today but not for collecting...
ok lets get down to the "nut cuttin'"...i often read "what elon musk said today on twitter" which is very revealing...i like Mr. Musk but i think his evaluation of certain aspects of his relationship to the environment is flawed...he suffers from "nature deficit disorder"...and going into space will probably make it much much worse...throughout the history of humanity Homo sapians et. al. have oriented themselves by comparison to the nature that surrounded them...more and more of humanity have less and less nature to relate to...i think this makes humans too "machine-like"...but i spent so much time in the zoo business i became imbued with a respect, even a reverence for nature...BUT i came to realize that the animals i encountered in the zoos were separated from the environment in which they evolved...therefore they were other than what their species had evolved into over many millions of years...soooo for someone to say that more people is more better strikes me as being oblivious to the inevitable result...which is more people equals less nature...and more "machines"....now i am only a wheelbarrow and shovel guy...but my orientation to the planet on which i live includes all the plants, animals and "undecided" entities. i do however applaude the musk ethos that self driving vehicles would make humans lives better...perhaps there will be an opportunity to obtain a musk financed used EV...recycle or die Elon!...
"Trust through total transparency is the only thing that should be believed." ELON MUSK
Wednesday, July 15, 2026
"I've watched the summer evening pass by..."
the mon-sooner or later has been a bit less than generous with the precipitation...
i am not a person who feels that "the public" has any right or expectation to be protected from the truth...this youtube presentation is pretty abrupt...."North America is Heating Up"@ Climate Emergency Forum (30 min)...
had to move due to road construction which is soon to begin...the spot i moved to is the same place where i found the yellow ants and the orange fox...not a bad spot but a steady stream of vehicles is often present..
the first day several raucus ravens came to see me and i think it was the family i befriended a couple of years ago... truly lovely creatures...
the reception on the phone was pretty intermittant so i watched some of the movies i have on a mini-SD...and read some articles in my periodicals...
i was pleased that my "aroma" (stink) became apparent to me after several months of no olfactory awareness...perhaps it was the prednisone which made my smell ability re-appear...i also experienced extreme headaches for reasons un-known...i decided it might be my water supply as some of the water in my gallon jugs was several months old...i trashed the old bottles and bought new water for $1.37 a gallon...i have not had headaches since i changed my water source...
as i try to look objectively at my life i realize that an insurance actuarial table can accurately predict my longevity...never imagined myself at 72 years...life is good...but not forever...
"I've watched the summer evening pass by I've heard the rattle in my bronchi Someday I'll have a disappearing hairline Someday I'll wear pajamas in the daytime... from Crash test dummies song"Afternoons and Coffeespoons"
Tuesday, July 7, 2026
"When you deal with irrational animals..."
i'm gonna be negative now, so as to get it out of my system before it poisons my mind...as i sit here watching "journalist discuss shifting media impact on black communities" it occurs to me that there is not "white" people represented...durn their scurvy white butts...as soon as i heard the ghost of Emmit Till i knew it was going to be a "black blather fest" when one of the participants brought up how her ancestors was snatched up from mother africa and brought to the new world in chains it occured to me that the black african tribal chiefs who enriched themselves by selling other blacks into slavery never get brought up...there are some very good youtube presentations about the genetic makeup of about every human population...the so called "black irish" it seems have a different genotype than the red heads..humans all the way back to denisovans and neanderthals have genetic markers which the rapidly growing field of genetics is analysing...sorry no reparations coming from them either...if you spend too much time walking backwards you are going so stumble...i am aware of an increasing amount of "radicalized" views on the internet...from every spectrum of society...as resources become smaller and the population of humans becomes larger the rationalization for extreme responces will increase....the example of the entire globe changing when the covid pandemic was at its height should be an example of how humans have it in their power to save themselves...but instead we have resigned ourselves to playing games and destroying the atmosphere in the process....how many sporting events were played and how many people attended them in the last year?...oh well...
"When you deal with irrational animals, with things and circumstances, be generous and straightforward. You are rational and they are not. When you deal with fellow human beings, behave as one. They share in the LOGOS. And invoke the gods regardless. Don't worry about how long you will go on doing this. A single afternoon would be enough. MARCUS AURELIUS
Monday, July 6, 2026
"NIGHTMARES..."
Friday, July 3, 2026
"TAT..."
photo taken this morning with my recently purchased Nikon D100...came with a nice 18-70mm nikon lens a nice camera bag 2 batteries and battery charger... 6mp...like new $40 bucks...shop thrift stores!
so i need to say something about what gets sold by persons who have podcasts...there is a guy who is very popular who is selling a super duper backback...there are thousands of back-packs in thrift stores...also there is a guy (dr huberman) who is selling a titanium skillet...there are thousands of skillets in thrift stores... don't mean to discredit anyone ( I listen to dr. hubermans health advise as closely than I listen to my own doctor) however! the notion that selling overpriced stuff on line is OK is not OK...recycle or die...
i watched a presentation on youtube @"dig it with raven" entitled "Dear Joe Rogan I'm an Archeologist and ..."(12 min) this is about debunking the clickbait scammer joe rogan...he claims things on the walls in pyramids are helicopters etc...this guy has muscles in his head where brains should be...now he has to "face the raven"...
now on a more personal level...i seem to be experiencing "death from delay"...colon cancer tests lost in the mail...radiation treatment turned into personal vendeta, cataract surgery deemed un-needed by nurse staff, i am losing faith in the medical component of my life...however...i do get to see medical personell and have a good food budget and the weather is not injurious to my health so i guess i can carry on until i cannot carry on...i saw my medical record recently and i have what are called co-morbidities... i was warned many years ago...you get old, you get sick, you die...well, there is more to it than that...i think it is good to manouver ones existence so as to be happy until the last minute...then get out with some control...
TAT TVAM ASI...
"Allocation of energy..."
stayed at a spot a half a mile from where i usually stay...nice spot has a large stone fire-ring NO FIRES NO FIRES NO DAMNED FIRES!...still there are forest fires to the south and forest fires to the north and hazy smoke all around...and no rain in sight...these are the unavoidable facts...the weather patterns changing...the numbers don't look good...same ol' same ol'...well at least we can take comfort in the fact that there is a lot of money being made....right!...tell me i'm right...anyhow the social democrats are in office on the east coast and in the middle of the country and now they need an elected official on the west coast...then they can do the pincher maneuver. certainly no one can be surprised that a rather extreme version of government is being elected...extreme situations call for extreme measures...the difference in the current situation is that the very wealthy are all regular folks...begun with modest financial resources...not royalty...just hard working american ingenuity...combined with greed perhaps...
watched some good youtube last week...ain't no surprise...i hear where there are laws which now make it a criminal offense to allow any human under the age of 16 years to get on "social media"...what the hell is social media!...i would have thought that for a thing to be social there would have to be the ability to be responded to...comments and such...i hope and pray that i am never asking for "LIKES" or thumbs or anybody's nickel or approval or anything else...even a dime will alter the way a person thinks...we be very emotionaly involved with money...as a species...bonobos...not so much...
speaking of money.."only fans model ostracized" (24min) (soft white underbelly)...a 23 year old woman who paid cash for her home and automobiles and has a million bucks in the bank and makes $300 K per month says she was being treated badly for being a sex worker...even more distressing is the interview with Addison Vodka who never said how much money she makes but i imagine a lot...she has been on the internet since she was in elementary school...she likes it a lot...she is the happiest person i have seen being interviewed about her sex work...also an only fans participant as well as a regular maker of commercial videos for the porn industry...she aspires to be "performer of the year"...she likes the job!...however i saw her in an interview later where she looks like she is distraught about the negative comments she has recieved...NEVER LISTEN TO COMMENTS!....BUT i noticed that i was somewhat depressed after watching Ms. Vodkas interview (perhaps she should change her name to Ms.Highball)...i was lamenting the blue funk i was experiencing when i came across Ms MARIA DUMITRESCU or Ria-DMS as she posts under...she is ASEXUAL...she has some excellent presentations...(7 types of attraction most people don't know exist." @ria-dms...i was feeling particularly "dickless" and this world view explained in a very articulate way how many people do not crave a sexual relationship...WHO KNEW!....this is exactly the type of information that the "under 16" crowd need to have access to...it ain't all about penetration!... felt suddenly free from the millions of years of social conditioning that insists "inseminate or die!"...i watched ms Florence Welches video "sympathetic magic" and let it be known I am not responsible for her insemination...i think we should start a campaign to address SCOPOPHILIA...might help...
some non-sexual viewing is Hunter Bidens 2hour and 20 minute interview and his Radical Transparency world view...he presents himself and his sobriety as a victory for those at "rock bottom"...took a lot of courage for him to bare his soul this way on "soft white underbelly"..."can aluminum cans be recycled" @ "jerry rig everything" very good video of how it is done...also i met a fellow who informed me that the DIRE WOLF has been brought back from extinction...this is bunk...and measures a very high number on the "bull shit" scale...for good solid science go to @K passionate...this lady carefully looks at the science and says that Dire wolves are not even wolves but are more closely related to jackals, dholes and African wild dogs...and the clones have zero dire wolf DNA...and i once stated that there was no metal working by the indigenous peoples of north america...however there apparently was a extensive copper culture in pre-historic north america...
got to go and make more coffee...
"Allocation of energy is 90% of the game of life" Dr Andrew Huberman