"There is no Frigate like a book..."

                                  some books i am reading...both are difficult...but worth the effort

well i suppose it had to happen...i finally got a medical bill....over two hundred dollars...thats a lot for a person with my income...i was looking at the several "procedures" that i have had recently...i noticed that the two CT scans were priced at one thousand dollars and 12 thousand dollars...the only difference that i could see was that for the 12 thousand dollar one i had to drink two bottles of white paint stuff...thats about 5 thousand dollars a bottle...must have been pretty expensive paint...however i will pay the bill in installments...i have read many times that during the last years of a persons life they spend almost all their money on medical bills...serious bummer...i like having a few discretionary dollars in my wallet...so now i have to decide whether the cost and discomfort of treatment for prostate cancer will be worse than leaving the cancer untreated...it is a juggling act really...as the old body begins to...well, act old...you start to wonder if you leave the dental work undone will you suffer from that...before you die...and a quite a few other systems malfunctions that occur when the body ages....usually....i talked to a man yesterday at his yard sale who said he was 93 years old...he was in great shape and very lucid...had an active life of being a bush pilot in alaska...everyone ages differently i suppose...then there is the mental aspect to aging...i dont want to be a walking vegetable...i have heard a couple of people talk about people who flew to Switzerland and paid 10 thousand dollars for a doctor to euthanize them...no muss no fuss clean and tidy...why cant we have the government pay for "effecting our transmigration" in a way we approve of...it shouldn't cost more than a couple of bucks     i think i am going to morph from a particle to a wave when i am no longer a living body...and i have read a good article about turning human bodies into compost...but it cost 7 thousand  bucks...it should be free...no muss no fuss clean and tidy...

"There is no Frigate like a Book                                                                                                                    To take us lands away                                                                                                                                    Not any Coursers like a Page                                                                                                                         Of prancing Poetry-                                                                                                                                      This Traverse may the poorest take                                                                                                               Without oppress of Toll-                                                                                                                               How frugal is the Chariot                                                                                                                             That takes the human soul.   Emily Dickinson (1873)