"I am- yet what I am , none cares...

maxxed out the 5 dollar yard sale 2 gig AA powered ipod thingy
loaded it with jj cale, tom t hall, harry neilsson, warren zevon, bing crosby,
hawaiian slack key guitar, david lindley, dusty springfield, king crimson, leon redbone
lyle lovett,  nick lowe, randy newman, paul simon, ravi shankar,
ry cooder,  yamato japanesse flute, and several hours of
 andrew pessin lecures on "the philosophy of mind"

prepared for any mood or occasion
modern technology, ain't it grand

was forced into signing a petition today
which was online protesting internet piracy laws
couldn't proceed without signing
what the hell
you or i could not do that

"J.j. Cale

 Money Talks lyrics 

Money talks, it'll tell you a story
Money talks, says strange things
Money talks very loudly
You'd be surprised the friends
You can buy with small change
They say it's the root of all evil
They say gold is the king
Money talks, you'd better believe it
All that gold don't mean a thing
Rich people, hear those pockets jingle
Spare change, hear the down-and-outers cry
Money talks, tip-toe up behind you
Steal what they can,
Off the cuff or on the sly
Money talks
Money talks
Money talks


 the politically charged atmosphere vibrates with innuendo
 the landscape gets increasingly strange

herr gingrich extols the virtues of andy jackson
"who knew how to deal with his enemies...
he killed them"

my grandmothers grandmother was a choctaw infant
left with a white family in mississippi to be raised
as she would not have survived the "trail of tears"
this is andy jacksons legacy
killed more indians, more brutally than anyone.

herr gingrich has studied "modern european history"
i wonder if he remembers the policies and maneuvers
that led to the nazi party coming into power in germany
sure he does , he probably has them memorized.
no thanks herr gingrich

i don't understand it
i get a daily infusion of harassment
and i am such a lovable fellow
usually
sometimes

'I am- yet what I am,  none cares or knows;
My friends forsake me like a memory lost;
I am the self consumer of my woes."
                    John Clare (1793-1864)
              written at northampton asylum
back to the circus
mr. Cayetano

“And get back to your job...

 

new calendar

yesterday, t-shirt weather

today long underwear

hmmmm,  hmmmmmm

modified the diet recently

looked into the dumpster as I always do

sitting near the top was a small micro wave

i fished it out

smelled bad

rotten meat in a bag in the thing

not too much though

cleaned it out with bleach and soap

works fine

set it up and made tea

and cooked sweet potatoes

and popcorn

and more popcorn

and two cheap sausages

sort of meat flavored putty things

kk for $1.36 though

and more popcorn

Hmmmmm, hmmmmmm

quit eating at the “facility” where I am a “guest”

kept feeling, ah..sort of, ahh…”modified”

not the first time I had to cease and desist

with the vittles at a place like this

ya, know once you are in a place where

you are described as “homeless” you are subject

to all kinds of odd treatment

first of all you are guilty of poverty in a society

which cherishes wealth

 the fact that you are “homeless” makes you

a  criminal

so it is only right that you be “chemically modified’

‘cause as soon as you become homeless you are most likely going to break into the “good folks” homes

ravage their children and pets

steal grand-ma’s  antique jewelry

and piss on the side of the house

this is an interesting phenomenon

“homeless” equals criminal

and pissing on the side of the house

or light pole or dumpster certainly to

follow quickly

but, what are ya’going to do?

just deal with it.

hmmmm, hmmmmm

“For, I have learned, in whatever state I am, therewith to be content.”  Philippians 4:11

i learned a new word recently

BRICOLAGE

A person who engages in bricolage

Is a

BRICOLEUR

that's me

a bricoleur

i live a bricoleurs life

didn’t know it until now

thought I was odd or something

ya’ got to love the French

they have a place for everyone

hmmmmm, hmmmmmm

i have been wondering if the occ-u-pee wall street

folks have a second act ready

i read an interview with

John C. Bogle recently

big time wall street fellow

82 years old

nothing to lose

his company controls a trillion bucks worth of investments

he says-

“I’m selling my investment to you and you are buying it from me and it creates no value to society.

Indeed it subtracts value because the guy in the middle gets his peace.”

he says we do 40 trillion bucks a year in trading.

i remember Ralph Nader,

remember Ralph?

elections coming up

remember Ralph.

anyhow I remember Ralph saying

“look, we don’t need to bail wall street out

if we just tacked a small fee for these trades

and put it in a trust they would have the money

set aside to use in these calamities.

But no one listened to Ralph

anyhow Bogle hates the middle man

and so do i!

Hmmmmm, hmmmmmm

“I am the poor white, fooled and pushed

       apart,

I am the Negro bearing slavery’s scars

I am the Red man driven from the land.

I am the immigrant clutching the hope I

    Seek-

And finding only the same old stupid plan

Of dog eat dog, of mighty crush the weak.

                 “Let America be America again”

                    Langston Hughes (1902-1967)

Hmmmmmm,  hmmmmmm

i don’t mind being homeless

but I could not tolerate being hum-less

“And get back to your job of writing.

The job of the writer is to kiss no ass, no matter how big and holy and tempting and powerful.”

                                           Ken Kesey

got to go,

Mr. Cayetano

                                

Entrap

"Entrap- to involve in difficulties or distresses; to catch or involve in contradictions."
Blacks law dictionary

"A person is guilty of criminal coercion if, with purpose to unlawfully restrict anothers freedom of action to his detriment, he threatens to; accuse anyone of a criminal offense; or expose any secret tending to subject any person to hatred, contempt or ridicule, or to impair his credit or business repute."
Blacks law dictionary

got that?
obviously as a society we have decided to overlook these
little rules which make life tolerable

on any given day i hear the comment "i got you"
numerous times
why is that?
it is because slowly
culture has been reduced to the scramble of
people engaged in cannibalism
consume your neighbor
business competitor
once friends
whom ever you need to consume to "get your stuff"

•  Thucydides observations of ancient athens at the time of

Pericles death gives a startlingly familiar account of society turned cannibal

we must
"Learn the luxury of doing good."  Oliver Goldsmith

 i'll go upon my "guilty" way

mr. cayetano

“I am in point of fact,...

 

penis

needed to get that out

awoke after an uneventful nights sleep

except for bishop mike telling me to get out

i will appeal to the pope of course

then off to “the job” 

   i am always welcomed with open arms

everywhere i go

small arms

some art-tillery

grenades such as that

 took an early lunch

signed out and

went to the storage

penis

i needed to get that out

where I picked up my laundry and went

to the launderette 

then to the thrift store next door while

laundry was washing

penis

I needed to get that out

one washer kaput

took an extra 29 minutes

read this bit of wisdom while waiting

“Every form of addiction is bad, no matter

whether the narcotic be alcohol or

morphine or idealism.”  Carl Jung

i am surrounded by addicts

set upon by addicts

hounded by addicts

of every stripe

i wonder why?

  

“ I attack and criticize people myself; I have

no right to expect lenience in return.” Christopher Hitchens

chris is on to something there

the advantage i have is that my views get out there

the disadvantage i have is…my views get out there

i had been thinking about many of the people 

i encounter daily

so many seem to be just trying to survive

struggling not to sink into despair

stressed all the time

and wondered if anyone who

is in a position to help 

has any idea that

people are not guilty of poverty

"...the structure of our brain...is incredibly influenced by our

surrounding. Under stress the brain begins to starve. It

stops creating new cells. The cells it already has retreat inward. 

The mind is disfigured."  Elizabeth Gould Prof. psychology

                                          Princeton University

“love can defeat that nameless terror.”  Edward Abby

 thanks ed

“I am in point of fact, a particularly haughty and exclusive person, of pre-Adamite ancestral descent. You will understand this when I tell you that I can trace my ancestry back to a protoplasmal primordial atomic globule.”

                                                         “Sir W. S. Gilbert
got to go
mr. cayetano

In the councils of government

A little woozy today

must have been something i ate

inside joke

but not to drugged and fatigued to write

listening to the news on the radio again

heard a mom talking about hard times

she did not have enough money to

buy her teen-aged daughters a coat for winter

she started to cry on air

i had to laugh out loud

i just bought a fleece vest for 75 cents

pretty nice, name brand

i wonder if the newly poor people have figured out

how to shop at the yard sales

i guess they will, or be cold this winter

this lady is in houston

i have shopped at a lot of yard sales

and the several flea markets in houston

plenty of good coats for less than 5 bucks

plenty

then I heard about this “well know activist’ who torched

himself

not a building

not a military site

himself

radio said they were not sure what he was protesting

maybe he was cold

I wonder if the girls from houston could

warm themselves on his flames

didn’t know what he was protesting!

should have stayed alive and helped to

pick up some trash

lifetimes worth of work there

some people make a mess

some people clean messes up

listening to butthole surfers now

sort of makes me cynical

library lady said I was stealing music

when I down load it into my computer

i’ll turn myself in to the nearest policeman

politics much in the news

squirmin’ herman k.o.’d

the newtster making enemies in his own camp

read this quote and thought of the newt

“He uses statistics as a drunken man uses a lamp post-

for support rather than illumination.” Andrew Lang

and mitt

what was that ten grand bet thing about

hey, mitt, you look ridiculous if you

think the 99 percent can relate to your

privileged rich up-bringing and life style

and I think mormons aren’t supposed to bet

“We are never made as ridiculous through the qualities

we have as through those we pretend to have.” La Rochefoucauld

check your pockets citizens

just lost a bit of change

did you notice

662 billion bucks for the new defense budget

that’s a lot of education

or a lot of environmental help

are we stupid or what

the only country that wants to invade us has done so

get over it

In the councils of government, we must guard against the acquisition of unwarranted influence, whether sought or unsought, by the military industrial complex. The potential for the disastrous rise of misplaced power exists and will persist. We must never let the weight of this combination endanger our liberties or democratic process. We should take nothing for granted.”

Dwight D. Eisenhower (1961)

off to the comfort!?

of my inside bed

"things are seldom what they seem.

skim milk masquerades as cream."  W.S. Gilbert

mr. cayetano

"Very few things happen at the right time,

kind of fatigued today
was purposely kept awake last night
i thought some of my room-mates were snakes
turns out they are worms
honest mistake

 had a 4 bag glass of green tea for breakfast
kept me going
rode the bike today, as yesterday
parked at  "wombat park on the pond"
famous for homo-sexualites apparently
everybody says so
didn't see any.
 lascivious, lewd , lunging
guys licking their lips and lurking.
but i was there to ride the bike
when i returned from the circumnavigation of the
pond yesterday some sad, pathetic shaved headed
ninny did his "desperado assassin act"
pulled back the breach of his imaginary pistol
meant to alarm me
and i was alarmed at how moronic people can be
wow, exciting air pistols! bang, fuckin, bang!

i will admit i might have upset some of the locals
what with my observations of "slap stick village"
corruption?

"We cheat the other guy, and pass the savings on to you."

this is the motto here
it's the bible thumpers that seem to be the worst

listening to "the newtster" being quoted on the radio
"invented people" seems to have upset some folks
the americans are an invented people too
invented from all the peoples of the globe that came here
the mexicans are invented too, from the native tribes and the spanish
and the australians, invented from the people who went there
even the aboriginals, there for 45 thousand  years, came from
north africa, 60 thousand years ago.
we were all invented by way of being from somewhere else
but newt is a historian, he knows that.
he likes to invent too.

i think too many people in this  country are looking for someone else to do
their thinking for them
i found this great simple poem which has bit of genius in it
written by a very smart and funny man.

Yesees and Noees- by Shel Silverstein

"The Yesees said yes to anything
That anyone suggested
The Noees said no to everything
Unless it was proven and tested
So the Yesees all died of much to much
And the Noees all died of fright
But somehow I think the Thinkforyourselfees
All came out alright."








 "Very few things happen at the right time, and the rest do not happen at all;
the conscientious historian will correct these defects."  Herodotus (484-425 BCE)


got to go,
mr. cayetano

the best thing about being in a fairly remote spot by the
bayou for a few days is that
there seems to be a distance from you and "society"
it's nice
but even though i had to hold the antenna wire this way and that
to get radio reception i got to listen to "the latest news"

 one thing i asked myself when i kept hearing
all this information about candidate cain was
"what in the hell was that guy thinking about"
where do these republicans get these "auto de fe"
candidates from?

this is certainly becoming "delusional nation"
no matter how i do the math, and i did not use
a calculator, i can't figure out how the current
commander in chief gets to be called "african american"
i'm going to refer to him as barack O'Bama the irish american
president. and i will just as correct as the others.
mixed race is a mis-leading but more correct term.
for some people these terms are "beneath the threshold
of indifference".
but it only adds to the reality of americas capacity to
embrace delusional ideas.

now the "newtster" has claimed the booby prize by default
this fellow certainly has a "fertile mind"
unfortunately when his brain was composting it obviously
left some parts un-digested and so now substantial chunks of
garbage remain intact in his grey matter.
i have done a lot of "janitorial" type work
it is not shameful to do janitorial work, unless you do it
poorly.
but the "newtster" seems to think that one size fits all.
poor people do menial work
wealthy people do...what more substantial work?
hogwash.
 people are more delusional about "employment"
than about any other aspect of their lives.
we do not need more jobs.
we need less people.
 take the work that needs to be done (not non-essential work)
divide it among the people capable of doing it.
 pay for their food. shelter and education.
anything else they may want, let them seek other employment.
until society has re-thunk the employment necessity we will always
have this problem.
i heard this week that if the top 15% of students in china are "exceptional"
then they have more "exceptional" students than usa has students.
that's a lot of brain power.
but there are relatively few american citizens who immigrate to china



 i went to have the ankle inspected by the ankle expert again.
more x-rays, more re-cuperation in store.
as i sat in the waiting room,  i listened to some ladies
speaking about their extreme pleasure in watching the
local university sports team in action.
any team, any sport will about do for the purpose of
illustrating my point.
endorphins, adrenaline induced endorphins.
i don't think sports fans give too much of a damn
about the team, it's the adrenaline addiction that
keeps them going back. rah!
i would like to see an academic study which lists
the bio-chemistry of sports fans before, during and after a game.

when i had been inspected by the ankle doctor i ambled over
to the elevator and pushed the down button.
a woman person came over and got into the elevator with me
she said, in not too cryptic language, "there will be no open windows for you"
uh oh.
girl power has spoken.
i was told some years ago that
"the women are more organized"
a gangster type fellow imparted this information to me in
a foreign nation.
at the time it did not mean much.
but i get his point.
a woman in n.o. told me, without much ceremony, that i would be
"pushed down into the gutter and stepped on".
it didn't mean much to me at the time, but i get the point.
i'm not one much for "joining the club"
not much of a member.
don't have the wardrobe for it really.
i'm not a "colored person"
any color is fine with me.
it has cost me some money to be an "outsider" but
i sleep o.k.

well, i've timed out
got to go
mr. cayetano