Friday, May 17, 2024

"You don't get to care..."

                                              spider that was under the same rock as ants
                           spider that was under another rock with ants...she was anxious to protest her eggs...she lost her egg sack and i had to pick it up and lay it beside her so she did not lose her "lifes work"
                                                ants with their eggs under a rock
more ants from under the same rock as ants above...these appear to be a different species
 my raven friend that greeted me when i first drove up to this site...it sometimes lands a few feet away


so the question i have is...are the spiders species specific co-inhabitants of the ants...is the relationship symbiotic or parasitic or what...are the ants divided into different species or is there dimorphism in the species... 

according to the Sapir-Worff theory a persons understanding of reality is determined by there understanding of language...sooo...when i read in my various volumes of dictionaries my understanding of the world should change as my vocabulary is changed...AND IT DOES!...

i was thinking about anthony bourdains death by suicide and it occurred to me that as a person in addiction recovery he seemed to be pretty fast and loose with his use of intoxicants...pot in Uruguay...booze everywhere...all addictive substances...i think if he had got sober and stayed sober he could have dealt with the trauma of a relationship gone sour...or not...it has not escaped my notice that a  hell of a lot of human so-called artistic endeavors deal with human relationships...like that is all there is...

i read a good article by Sam Wang associate professor of  neuroscience at Princeton in the march 2009 magazine "Discover" about will power...he says "you can actually build up willpower like a muscle if you can do something that requires effort of will...like brushing your teeth with your non-dominant hand...you can build up whatever is responsible for willpower. (they are still not sure what that is)

anadiplosis=when a word is repeated for effect                                                                                            anagnorisis=the point that leads to reversal of fortune                                                                                  Aotearoa= the maori name for new zealand                                                                                                  aptronym= when  a persons name matches their occupation (trump? biden?)

a good but dense youtube offering is terrence Mckennas "age of confusion (25min)                                   richard huganirs "synaptic plasticity" (38min)

saw a rather terrifying ad for a "Complete Control" sphincterotome which brought back memories of my own encounter with anus ordeals...you lay on your side and they spray freezing stuff from an aerosol can onto your butthole and then they inject all around your butthole to numb it even more then they go in with a scope so they can see what they are doing then they inject the substance between your prostate and the colon (i think) and then when they radiate your prostate the colon won't be fried too...all things considered it was a success...they offered me a strong pain killer and some valium but i refused them as i am a recovering addict...better to have a little pain than deal with addiction possibilities...

Keller williams "Rappers delight Jam" st.louis 9/10/11 is well worth watching

"...YOU DONT GET TO CARE WHERE I'M WAKIN' UP THIS MORNING..." "It ain't your place"               country western music lyrics i heard this morning while packing up the truck...heart breakin'

 

 

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