"Nature never became..."

spines

                                                               

                                                           thorns

christmas in the desert was calm...spent the day in the truck/home out of the wind watching DVDs and You Tube and reading...and eating... i watched one of the chapters in Bart Ehrmans lectures on the new testament 0f the christian bible...a very interesting account of the life and teachings of jesus of nazareth written by a fellow named Luke who was an educated greek and never met jesus ,,,about 50 years after jesus death luke used existing information to document what he found out...professor ehrman is quite knowledgable about writings about "christanity"...another chapter in this collection is about early judaism and he mentions the pharisees, the sadducees, the essenes and what he calls the "fourth philosophy" which is the important link to what is happening in israel/palistine today...well it seems the "fouth philosophy" folks were radical real estate cult folks and thought the romans had no right to rule "judea" since somewhere in their religious "book" (like the moslems and the christians the jews are called "people of the book") anyhow they constantly harassed the romans and anyone who did not adhere to the jewish right to rule the real estate in question...the romans eventually kicked their ass and took their sacred loot from the temple...so today this real estate cult has decided that from here to there (i think from the "river to the sea" is the term they use) is once again to be theirs exclusively...i expect it will only get messier in that part of the world....

i watch the thick smoke regularly coming from the mexican side of the border and  might write a letter to the new mexican president who has a doctorate in environmental science stuff and ask her to find a better solution to garbage disposal...it stinks!...i

 heard that jeff bezos plans a $600 million dollar wedding...does the term "compensate" seem relevant...the 300 foot yacht seems a good place to honeymoon...

listened to some good philosophy lectures also..."How quantum physics affects your everyday life" by max planck was very stimulating as was jean baudrillards "Radical disenchantment"...pretty heavy thinking going on here so i have had to listen several times...but worth it...

went to mexico yesterday to have my teeth cleaned and yet another tooth pulled...one hundred bucks...my whole jaw hurt most of yesterday but it is much better today...

got up about 5am this morning and watched the farm report which everyone should watch every now and then...100% of people eat but a very small percentage of people have any idea of what effects food prices...it is amazing how global weather conditions effect food prices here...

 

"Nature never became a toy to a wise spirit"... Ralph Waldo Emerson
 

"And all your money..."

spider webs across what appears to be an ant hole...

 the black marauder ants invaded and attacked the "big head red" and colony...overwhelmed but not defeated

i watched a good youtube presentation  this week by peter watts who did hid Ph.D. work on the ecology of harbor seals...then he wrote science fiction then he investigated consciousness...his presentation was entitled "Conscious ants and human hives"...he talked about ants looking at themselves in a mirror and seeming to recognize themselves...among other things...

the reality of the "big head red" ants being attacked stems from my sprinkling pollen and cracker crumbs on the entrance hole to their colony which "unbalanced" the ecosystem...i read a good story in the scifi anthology called "The Proving Ground" by Alec Nevala-Lee...whoa buddy people have been upsetting the environmental balance for a long long time!

picked up a collection of story's on DVD called "Carnivalle"...which is pronounced car-na-val-eh...which i suppose makes their little mud show sound like a better circus than it is...this story takes place back in the  1930's during the so called "great depression"...everything was scarce apparently water especially so ...everyone needsa bath and their clothes stitched up...this is one of the most depressing shows i have ever seen...the only person who is always clean is the preacher and he is in cahoots with the devil...i can only watch about one of these segments a week... then i have to watch "Cuddle Buddies" to renew my faith in the human race...

on Amazon Music Unlimited (ad)

"Dust In The Wind"

I close my eyes
Only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity

Dust in the wind
All they are is dust in the wind

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind

Now don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind
All we are is dust in the wind
(All we are is dust in the wind)
Dust in the wind
(Everything is dust in the wind)
Everything is dust in the wind
(In the wind)

 

 

"This is becoming ..."

never have to go far to see the gun goobers work

more ancient metal in the desert

upsidedown tree

this mornings moon setting in the west

had to move from the ant farm campsite as there was a van scrunched down in the bushes 50 yards away...way too close for comfort...went to a place i had not been in a couple of years which has a lot of good hiking...and some energetic mountains also...the foxes came around and  yipped  vociferously for quite a while a few nights ago...probably appreciated the water bowl...very sparse youtube action in this spot unless i climb a nearby hill...which i do once a day...i did manage to pick up ralph nader radio hour for last week...mr nader has some alarming predictions about the results of the current conflicts...i hear where mr daniel penny was found not guilty in the death of the man he restrained on a subway...i wrote about this fellow in a past blog...he was a bad egg...what mr magioni hoped to accomplish by gunning down a health care executive i cannot imagine...but he will end up like mr vanzetti with a noose around his neck for his efforts...risk to reward judgments must be considered...read a great scifi story in my anthology called "Whending my way back home" by bill johnson (who is 6 feet eight inches tall) also watched "zero dark 30"...(2013...157 min.)... i guess my consumption of way too much chocolate this morning did not do any permanent damage...maybe...whatever...

"This is becoming a land of propaganda..." jim engster
 

"Mein fhre heisst treue"

these were in a free bag of rags...now i guess i will be charged with socks trafficking

this spider built a web across the "big red head" ants hole...it was gone in two days

i saw this hole surrounded by flower fuzz stuck together with web...probably a spider hole

this was a sunset last week and the above image is the front yard view daily...80 degrees today...too hot

i watched the movie "Alice's Restaurant" on thanksgiving day...never seen it before...rather depressing to remember the sustained naivety and downright stupidity of some of the people of that era...the ending was fitting...heard where a 1500 year old carved tablet of the 10 commandments is going up for sale...only 9 of them are on this tablet...LEBENSTRAUM is the german term that the nazis used to describe their land grab during WW2...they needed the room for the german people to stretch out...the Israelis have the same notion today...i am glad Biden pardoned his son...can't leave him in the clutches of the "VENDETA" administration...now all sex workers have full civil rights in Belgium...great...some of the folks nominated for the new government are "problematic"...head of intelligence named "gabby"...probably not...watched the 8 minute advert for the new electric jaguar...they come in pink or blue, have a range of 430 miles and are called type 00...whatever...don't have to worry about getting the trains to run on time...we ain't got no passenger trains to speak of...damned few busses left also...we are all going to have to drive a tesla i guess...were screwed...they made a 2 ton bust of fentanyl in mexico last week...fentanyl deaths down by 14%,,,deaths of people over 60 up by 4 times...i figure they are suicides...read a good Scifi story in my anthology "An evening with Severyn Grimes" by Rich Lawson...also was wondering why so much information about donald trump was omitted in the news...he apparently lost 30 pounds before the election and his so called crazy dance to the "YMCA" song was due to two medical emergencies in the crowd...we need to look at the current political situation without blinking...the latest Sabbatical tommy post finishes when the KGB scoops him up and throws him in jail in Russia...well yeah!...a very good youtube presentation is by dr andrew huberman "Erasing fears and traumas based on modern neuro science of fear" 2hours and 14 minutes but worth the time...the time is late and i need to wind down the night...

mein fhre heisst treu= my honor is loyalty,,,the motto of the german SS in ww2 (check spelling)

"No sane man..."

 so i have not reviewed these videos yet but i think they are from from last week and were captured at my present campsite which is about a mile south/south west from where a few years ago i got some videos with the CUDDY game camera of a canid with a bad leg...as this animal seems to have...i assumed the canine was shot dead as i heard gunshots shortly after the animal left...there seems to be two individuals in these 3 videos...i think these animals are not coyotes or at least not pure coyotes but there are people who have much more experience than myself in identifying canids...as this is a very few miles from mexico (less than 10) this may be a mexican gray wolf...

i have heard buzz today about these videos in the grocery and as i already know the extent to which some folks have gone to steal my game camera videos i am not surprised...i need to buy a few locks and lock up the access to my cameras...also i need to drag myself into the 21st century and get a VPN app...my life is being stolen at an increasing rate...i see where there is a FACEBOOK account now with my first name and my last name and a period in between....HOLY MOLY...i hope no one has responded to this account thinking that person is the writer of this blog...since my readership is now skyrocketed to nearly 12 people again and i am still trying to get it up to 15 people i hope the facebook account dies a natural death and if whoever has started this account tries to appear to be me i will go to the feds...(i doubt if the FBI is going to be shot down by mr Kash) to appropriate a persons identity is a felony...

also i saw a video simply labeled "canada geese Mp4" this is a video i took on the western side of eugene oregon some years ago at a spot i used to go every morning before dawn...as a matter of fact this road is listed as my address on my oregon drivers license...the drivers license people know a lot of people live in their vehicles and just ask where you park at night...no muss no fuss...the very sad story about this wonderful sight of a lot of canada geese flying is that i asked if these geese still come to this supposed to be protected spot and i was told they do not...i suspect that the fact that a fellow decided to open a Frisbee course nearby and the nearby residents decided they should be able to walk their dog right across this property has something to do with the geese not returning to this spot...

i suspect the fact that it took 3 hours to do the 45 minute job of installing my new tires is a result of a bunch of outlaws combing my truck for anything they could steal...such as nearly a terabyte  of photography...yeah i better post my photos so anyone can download them who wants to use them or print them...

i watched some good movies and youtube recently..."The Fast and the Furious" (1954) 76 minutes directed by the male co-star John Ireland...photography by Floyd Crosby (Davids Daddy) and the jazz music by the chet baker quartet...the real star is the Jaguar automobile which appears to be a 1954 Jaguar XK120...this is featured in a Jay leno car segment...he loves this car and gushes over this model the second auto he ever owned,,,a man who indulges his pleasures

"No sane man can afford to dispense with debilitating pleasures. No ascetic can be considered reliably sane."  A. J.Liebling

"Once you start thinking..."

helper guarding the camera

interesting relationship to the gear

moved the camera to a large wood pile and this wood rat appeared for apple slices

this fox was trying to invite mr rat to dinner

saw this jack rabbit two times in the same place

these intellectual ants like the cracker crumbs and the bee pollen i sprinkle near their hole 

i guess we can all get ready to kiss our butts goodby...thanks for the land mines which putin calls and raises with a nuclear ICBM...great diplomacy there Joe!...saw some good Youtube this week as well as some good DVDs...tommy sabbatical makes it to the ural mountains and meets a nice russian lady whom he plies with mixed messages...little Chinese everywhere  Yan makes it to the trans siberian railway and meets russians and tastes the food...she is headed for her scooter and the tibetian plateau...Samantha Fish "No Angels" 6 min. WWCW 88.7 kicks ass on guitar..."The Maverick Outback Grazier using donkeys to regenerate his land/ australian story" is a good example of making adjustments to save a desert landscape from ruin...while doing battle with the government....picked up the fleetwood mac DVD called "The Dance" it was quite good and i never knew lindsay buckingham was such a good guitarist...and ms Mcvie sings like an angel her trademark song at the end...not to mention the entire University of Calif. los angels marching band comes on stage...good work...finished the 12th season of "Bones" and felt the need to acknowledge the genius of the casting crew,.. i don't read much fiction but i picked up a large volume of science fiction for a buck and have been reading in it...a good story was "The hunger after you're fed" by dan abraham and ty franck...

and as mr putin might say "VSYO NORMAL' NO"

"Once you start thinking about money, God leaves the room" Quincy Jones

 

"Scandal breeds hatred..."

the white tailed antelope squirrel survived another summer

even on a windy night the foxes come out for a drink of fresh water

yours truly attends to business of checking the cameras...the winds howled much of this week

so i awoke wednesday morning after getting little sleep...the winds surged to 40 mph and everything that could be blown away was blown away...i lost the sun reflector for the windshield,,,first wind storm of the season so now i am up to speed on the battening down the hatches etc etc...

i noticed a guy in a black hoodie who looked like trouble as i was driving out this morning...i saw him put the hoodie on as i drove past him...he looked like a gun goober and the buzz in town was that he had a high powered rifle...probably to use on me...guns are empowering and no gun in the face of armed conflict is a bad situation to be in...being as that was the state of california i would imagine that the laws are more restrictive than those in arizona... anyhow murdered people don't really care i imagine...

thought about presidents on wednesday...Coolidge was on my mind because i read about the COOLIDGE EFFECT which affects mammals...this is something that has origins in the limbic system in the brain and  makes males (not sure about females) have less intense response to sexual stimulation with the same partner...when new partners are introduced the intensity of the stimulation rises...THEREFOR...when a person looks at porn constant change in viewing is required to keep the interest level high...therefor i am no more of a pervert than a naked mole rat or a platypus...so there!

i also thought about the outcome of the usa presidential election...if ms harris would have said 4 words she could have won the election..."YOU LOOT, WE SHOOT." plain and simple...citizens can put up with a lot of incompetence in government but if the well paid government cannot guarantee to protect life and property...to hell with them... i am a strong believer in the amendment 2.1 of the constitution which should say i have the right to not have to carry a firearm to protect myself...guns are heavy, bullets are expensive and my temper is short...i used to carry two handguns at all times...i never had to "brandish a  weapon...as long as i am on the subject...why didn't the armed law enforcement on january 6th at the nations capital not wheel out the gatlin guns i assume they keep in the broom closets on both sides of the entrance doors and crank off a few hundred rounds about body mass height...then there would be a little more forethought at the next insurrection...

some good utube viewing..."Construction d'un puits in Africa/ senegal" (24 min) these people build a well with nothing but a shovel and a single steel pulley...fascinating and inspiring...also looked up the band "Isosceles Popsicle"...i heard a band named that when i was about 10 years old...probably not the same band...The song Eeze was good

"Scandal breeds hatred: hatred begets division: division makes faction: faction brings ruin" Quarels 

"The time is near at hand..."

since it has become fashionable to show off expensive watches i offer my 10 dollar walmart 

i was watching the "Washington Journal" on C-SPAN this morning and as usual i question the value of spending the expensive time to let people call in to voice their opinion about current events...many of these people are poorly informed and apparently in love with hearing their voices on the television...i have become sensitive to the various activities people engage in which seem to squander their time pr mine!...i heard a sentimental account given by a woman who spends her time painting red hearts on a wall somewhere to "commemorate" people who died from COVID...these people said that once the new hearts are painted the old ones need to be re-painted....sort of a never ending chore...and while i am on the subject of non-productive activities i always wonder how many people derive an income from their "investments" but never actually do any work other than manipulating financial resources...is this good? i worked for a labor service that was publicly traded and the managers all bought stock in the company but none of the laborers could afford to do so...this seems to be a problem which has a remedy.., several people come to mind who have the expertise to implement a change...mr musk, mr gates. zuckerberg etc... among several others...how did it come to pass that those persons who have vast financial resources have ignored the plight of those at the bottom of the economic spectrum...oversight?...callousness...viciousness...whatever it is eventually these under paid people will bring about social disruption....as usual... according to my reading metal coinage was introduced about the same time as the emergence of the first philosophers in the early 6th century BCE...so it may be time to re-invent money wouldn't you say...

i heard Ms Beyonce's song called "FREEDOM" i think...very thrilling...had me fist pumping!

"The time is near at hand which must probably determine whether Americans are to be freemen or slaves; whether they are to have any property they can call their own...the fate of unborn millions will now depend, under God, on the courage and conduct of this army. Our cruel and unrelenting enemy leaves us only the choice of brave resistance, or the most abject submission. We have therefore. to resolve to conquer or die."  George Washington (General Orders July 2 1776)
 

"Neme me impune lacessit"

i stopped trimming the beard in july when i turned 70 years old...i did not grow it it grew itself

 i was going to swear off the dollar a pint ice cream but Baba Rum Raisin was my Guru and this pint called out to me...damned good earthly desire to fulfill if i do say so myself...out and about today...the mechanics said they could not (or would not) fix my truck transmission so that is still one of the challenges i need to work on...the new tires are nice though...my computer is still being hacked by the criminal element which is so intent on my being in "the box"...i stand on it like a soap box...yelling!

the medical appointment yesterday indicated that i am growing more testosterone and not much else...but the energy level is somewhat higher and i might even grow some more muscle...i would advise anyone to take very seriously the decline in the "horizon of physical potential"...i became used to being able to endure almost any physical regime enough to get through a days hard work and thus gain some income...no more...i do not take for granted any advantage i might have today to be available tomorrow...such is life...better to recognize this than live constantly disappointed....grab an occasional pint of good ice cream...

i was noticing the large well muscled man who seemed to be keeping me under close scrutiny today...maybe federals? i did purchase a DVD which might make me guilty of something "Crash of the Moons" with Rocky Jones Space Ranger (1954)..."anyhow i have some observations about the military aspect of society...first of all it is probably imprudent to suggest that we can be rid of them...also despite mr trumps suggestion that he wants a military like A. Hitlers, history would indicate that herr hitler caused the loss of too many military engagements by insisting on calling all the shots thus eventually losing the entire war...he was not qualified in military campaigns...i might also add that nine guns to shoot his opponent sounds like a deep seated psychological aberration...he be nuts!...and i think it is apparent that in a town like this one the military influence is to the detriment of the a well rounded society...there is a "military" world view which tends to warp civil social aims...there is too much military influence in this country and we were warned about this by none other than George Washington and Dwight Eisenhower...signing a piece of paper agreeing to work for the US government department of defense does not make a person a hero...it does however allow the government to deny that persons civil and constitutional rights (think burn 360 etc etc) it is much easier to just agree with the folks who wave a flag and insist that all military is good military...the largest heroin smuggling operation in the golden triangle was set up by some army guys...i was told by Brandon on the Beach during the BP oil spill clean-up that i should be investigated due to my criticism of the military...not to scrutinize the military will eventually cause the government to end up like the government in Myanmar where the military has their own neighborhoods, schools and medical and stores while the rest of society suffers...not a goal to look forward to....

i recommend a couple of good utube offerings which got deleted so i will repeat them "A divided brain and an addicted world; The missing link? by Iain McGilcrest (one hour)...also a good Terrence McKenna offering entitled "We as Tribal People" about 52 minutes...this man is brilliant but can be pretty densely packed for casual consumption...

"Neme me impune lacerssit"= no one provokes me with impunity!

"As we jog on..."

top image is dead ants around the ant hole in bottom image...the second image is the hole that the chubby red spider lives near the "thoughtful" ants...the second from bottom image is the ant skins (exuviae)from the spiders hole...

i had a lengthy blog written but it was suddenly deleted...i have experienced increased attention from the criminal element which seeks to squash anything i might have to say

this is the expensive shirt which i paid either 50 cents or 20 cents for at the thrift store... i went to the laundry recently then i went to a nearby store...the shirt had bleach poured on it while i was gone...the girls who did it laughed a lot about their mischief...one of the girls came into the laundry saying that she was one of the people who "messed" with me when i was living in the trailer while i was undergoing cancer treatment....now this was my second time to rent a trailer art this trailer park CACTUS TREE...messed with quite a lot actually...my trailer was entered without my consent...people stood outside my window talking about me at all hours of the night and day...my neighbor said the harassment was going to be mostly "psychological"...the manager told me once that she had a special relationship with the city police...this relationship is obviously a mutual agreement to overlook criminal activity...on the first day of my being in the trailer i had to go to the cancer center to have the hydro-gel injection in preparation for the radiation treatment...i was told to give myself an enema to clean up the "work area" which i did...as i was giving myself this enema in the bathroom a person behind my trailer said "he is giving himself and enema"...a very interesting occurrence...i was in trailer #40 and the trailer behind me was occupied by another devious person who has no concept of legality...much of this trailer park seems to be enmeshed in a web of criminality...which only interests me insofar as my life is effected by it...YUMA county has so much corruption in the legal system that i doubt that anyone is willing to confront these mobsters with badges...i have been subjected to so much harassment recently that i believe the crime families feel threatened by anyone who has no intention of joining their ranks....the boy who helped around the trailer park made a point of telling me that all of his electronics had Blue tooth and as it seems he installed cameras in my trailer....he was european and kind of arrogant...kept saying he was from Los Angeles..like i was supposed to be impressed by that....he said he was good at chemistry...but his skills at making drugs was not too good as i could see from the facial complexion and texture of himself and the manager that he had some bad chemistry involved in this batch at least....i do not begrudge any ones attempt to be entrepreneurial but if  a person is so stupid as to  antagonize those who are willing to" live and let live" to hell with them....

i intend to document the  constant harassment which involves my photography being stolen and my writing being purloined as well as persons who follow me around and slander me...this is due to the corruption in the legal system who feel that the threat of exposure may cause them inconvenience... 

when i was in a motel room in Flagstaff someone stood outside my door and said it was "personal"(that is my harassment)...at this particular motel  the manager showed me a photo he had taken of a toilet which he said was from the room i rented last...the toilet was overflowing with feces...i said it was not my toilet....this clown has "unethical" on his license plate...and indeed when i went to the grocery store to buy a money order there was a man (also Indian) who tried to buy a money order for exactly the same amount that was in my bank account....apparently the balance on a persons bank account is useful information to have....fifty yards down the road is the motel where the manage tried to charge me one hundred dollars a day extra on an 80 dollar room for friday and saturday...in this room i am in today a man stood outside the door last night and was quoting my blog as i was writing it...there seems to be no attempt on the part of government to rein in the criminal activity of many of the foreign born business people...i suspect that there is an agreement with these folks to do so called "intelligence"  here and abroad...while american citizens are victimized... i went to a phone store in a southern city(BR) a while back and asked the middle eastern owner if he could jailbreak my samsung phone...he asked me where i got it and i said i found it in the road in the desert on the california border...he asked if it was sidewinder road...i was astounded that he would know of sidewinder road...he immediately called his handler to say he had a drug smuggler in his store...that would be me...this happens a lot to me....criminal elements seeking to implicate me as a criminal...although there is no shortage of criminal activity in this area of the desert..                          

 i intend to pay in the same coin to those who seek to implicate me as a criminal...

i expect that i will continue to be harassed and have my civil and constitutional rights violated. especially my right to privacy...

"As we jog on, either laugh with me. or at me, or in short do anything-only keep your temper." Laurence Sterne "Tristram Shandy"

"Inclined as it..."

 ok let's all try to get along....

ain't gonna happen...people have been whipped into a froth of angst and anger and animosity...nothing new under the sun...or in the shadows either...the soon to happen election for the head of the executive branch of the U.S. government as well as a myriad  of other elected officials all across the american nation...ain't it great...so many people around the world do not get the opportunity to vote for any representation in government...whereas allowing the people elected to serve office does not always come easy...

as for my own view of the governance of whatever place i happen to be living it is becoming increasingly apparent that democracy is like AA...it works if you work it....soooo...it seems as citizens of a democratic nation such as the USA we need to be vocal about what lengths we will go to stay democratic....when i hear the word "dictator" my first reflex is to say "assassination"...you see this nation has never required its citizens to bow, salute, or in any way appear less than anyone else...ain't it great!...one person...one vote...hooray!

 yes , there are problems in any government...some people think it is time to "change"...some people think change by "force" is the only way...there is "persuasion" then "coercion" then "force" if i remember my 10th grade speech class correctly...however...forced change in government  is usually the result of "armed and forceful" people using "force of arms" to implement the changes sought...it never goes as planned...the "velvet revolution" in Czechoslovakia implemented change in government without bloodshed...when their elected leader (who was a playwright) got into government he realized that he was not qualified to administer government so he allowed the professional administrators to do what they do so well...run things..

to be more forthcoming my own observations indicate to me that change is needed not so much in government as in the way people orient themselves in the world...most people follow the course of least resistance and go about their daily lives in a way that does not make them think too much about the reality of what so called "civilization" has resulted in...you know the result...look at the news for a few minutes and you will observe a hell of a lot of discomfort for a hell of a lot of people... but as the snowflake said "i am not the cause of the avalanche." 

that's about enough of my view of government, and the "human condition"...

"Inclined as it itself is to all extremes, a group can only be excited by an excessive stimulus. Anyone who wishes to produce an effect upon it needs no logical adjust in his arguments; he must exaggerate, and he must repeat the same thing again and again." Sigmund Freud   

"Better be despised..."

 i think the dog is Dagmar and the auto is a 1956 Pontiac Chieftain...the children live at the house 

the weather report said the temps would only be 94 degrees but the truck thermometer says 100 degrees, now i have 40 pounds of ice so i should make it OK...the room i rented was 80 bucks number 19 with an excellent air conditioner and excellent refrigerator an old style dial operated microwave which worked well and a bath with a shower and a tub the soap was about as useful as a poker chip and the shampoo in the plastic package could wash the hair on a small hamster...not a large hamster however...the television and remote worked well but the stations were not very good but one c-span and some public stations also.. i asked about weekend rates and was told the rates were the same as week-day rates...the neon lights were out on the sign but the ones that were lit said HACIEN...i think the others might have be DA...right there on the main drag in town...

the fellow at the place i had stayed in flagstaff raised the rates from 81 bucks to 181 bucks for friday and saturday...had to go down the road when i heard that...i hit two blizzards between flag and ash fork...i saw the longest backed up traffic i have ever seen in the eastbound hwy 40...at least 20 miles of stopped traffic...not sure what caused it there was an overturned semi trailer in the median and a pick-up truck which had been destroyed from the drivers door to the tailgate...don't see how anyone could have survived that...anyhow waiting until 5pm in the library to see if the temps go down some more...

i watched mr vance lie with a straight face into the camera on a campaign speech from yesterday i think...mr trump is still a psychopath and dangerous to the world...he seems to be experiencing what might be called a "historical mirage"...

read a good short account of the thinking process in humans according to Evelina Fedorenko who said that her research indicates that thinking can be done without using the language part of the brain...this is exactly contrary to what noam chomsky and others said their studies indicated...all thinking is dependent on language...a very interesting change in this science...may have implications on language and reason in machines also...

"Better be despised for too anxious apprehensions, than ruined by too confident security." E.Burke

 

"Distinction..."

 good moon rising...a few days ago in the desert...keeps things in perspective....

I've been thinking about eros and thanatos...the life and death notions according to s. freud...he felt that  thanatos was the desire to return to an in-organic state....and the eros desire was aligned with the libido or sex drive or creativity....i think humans whether consciously or sub-consciously have these notions in their motivations or drives at all times...when i view the ancient earth and the surrounding celestial spheres i can better relate to my physical self  in this realm....the non-physical self is less readily recognizable in this world....how ever i think my attraction to new growth  relates to my increased awareness  of my own aging self...caducity is a good term to tidy it up some...

i think before too many people get whipped into a frenzy of deportation they had better take a look at who it is that is doing most of the storm clean-up around the nation...and most of the fall agricultural work not to mention the dairy labor,,,,etc, etc etc...as usual some folks will "make an inch of truth cover an acre of ground"...when you "have to invent a world to support a theory..." i do not think the USA has become a "garbage can" so much as a re-cycling center...hooray for re-cycling...

i see on the early news where the zoo in colo. springs is being sued by the non-human rights project...they say their elephants are suffering due to inadequate habitat...the zoo is on the side of a mountain in the rockies...they have bred a lot of giraffes there...but elephants are a good place to start including non-humans the so-called "rights' movement...

i watched  some good utube presentations....sabbatical was in the city in russia where many world leaders recently met to consider how they will challenge the so called "west"...he is headed to siberia...hope had his long underwear handy.."philosophize this" released a good latest chapter which shows that mr. west is hitting his stride...very well done...and he says his next effort will deal with "mysticism"...what ever that is...

some good music came my way in the form of "Muriel Anderson demonstrates her Doolin Harp-guitar for Peghead Nation" and "Mike Dawes live at Cedars Hall"...i had to look up who was singing a country song i think called "excuse me, i think you love me' a tip of the hat to women's empowerment...

well i need to take my pygmy pony over to the dental floss bushes today...

"...distinction does not require separation..." Dr. Ian Gilchrist

"The problem of the house..."

ants that look normal but seem to have an enhanced awareness of their surroundings

poop bucket though low tech keeps the environment livable

saw this as drove into town this morning....wasted water...

what could be the reason for this cleared round area surrounding these ocatillo

i like a helium ballon as much as the next person...but i find these escapes all the time

when i crouched next to the above ants there was a single ant that was timidly walking near the entrance to the ant-hole when it saw me (or sensed me) it hurried back to the entrance to the hole...there were 6 or 8 ants crowded in the entrance of the hole and they simultaneously moved backwards upon sensing my presence...it was a kind of behavior i would not expect from ants...i think all species of ants probably have different capacities of awareness of their surroundings....

i looked for the high temperature predicted for today and at 97 degrees decided that my old co-morbidity body was not likely to come through UN-damaged...so i packed up and headed into yumertonville...stopped first at the post office in little winterhaven...very small mostly agricultural workers...except there are two pot stores and a titty-bar withing a hundred yards ...an old guy came in to spew lies about his encounter with gov. walz in minn. and declare how pathetic a country we live in...of course i always wonder if these folks who have these complaints have a passport...then they can just leave...i wanted to remind these folks of the woman who was just released from prison after serving a two year sentence because her 12 year old daughter posted something online that was derogatory about the government...i think this was in china or some other asian authoritarian country...and here these folks have the freedom to criticize the federal government in a federal building...they don't know how good they have it...

then i went to the scratched and dented store...one dollar pints of hagen daz ice cream was more than i could resist...also got 64OZ of olive oil for 12 bucks... then to the thrift and 2 science mags for a buck then to the walk-in medical where i was prescribed 4 meds for my COPD and went to the pharmacy and got the meds for zero dollars and zero cents with insurance...what a rotten country i live in right!...then the laundry and now the thermometer  reads 101 degrees...not survivable by me...get a room from the india hostler and buy some veggies for diner...better to have less money and remain alive than risk death by heat...

noticing the increased popularity of nose rings in men and women...interesting how as the Indian sub-continent has more and more people moving here the nose ring trend increases...i think it originates in India....

read a great interview in "SUN" magazine with Clarissa Smith who researched on-line pornography and wrote a book about it...she claims the average amount of time spent on porn sites on pornhub is 9 minutes and 40 seconds....well i average more like 9 hours and 40 minutes...but i have concluded that along with alcohol, pot, and gambling i can add porn to my addictions...i have heard that certain people want me to be listed as a porn addict...for no other reason than they assume it will "shame" me...look i think it is a lot more shameful to stalk and harass a person than to look at porn...anyhow i don't know if they expect me to wear a large red "P" on my clothes so decent folks can shun me...i despise the hypocrisy of these holy rollers... 

found a DVD of a 1930 movie "L'AGE D'OR" by L. Bunuel and salvadore dali...it is an absurdist movie i guess...it is certainly absurd...i also picked up a first season of "Black Sails" about pirates in 1715...there is a lot of violence and lot of sex and  a lot of violent sex and a lot of people who need a bath...a lot deception also...

there is a lot of talk about housing and the so called housing shortage is likely to only get worse...the government...any government seems unlikely to adequately address the unhoused in a manner that will satisfy anyone except the corrupted builders...i picked up a DVD called "Little Boxes" "the legacy of henry doelger"...this man built thousands of homes south of san francisco in the 1940's, 1950's and 1960's...really amazing achievement and a new concept in home building and what "sub-divisions" should contain...

"The problem of the house has not been stated." C0rbusier
 

"Authenticity..."

some of us need to do a reality check

this ant was about an inch long with much smaller room-mates just below a cow pie

this spider was under the same cow pie

this small stink bug looking creature was enjoying the last of the summer

two species of chipmunk which seemed to get along well

old fence,,,what do we still need to know of the "old" technology?

 round or square we still need to work together 

snow will probably fall within a few days at this elevation (7200 feet) so i am going to wander down to a lower elevation...spent $851 for new tires for the journey headed to the big sandy desert...again...some more...trade pine needles for sand...missed my blog therapy last week...i have read that "talking'" is a good therapeutic for schizophrenia and neurosis...either way i supplement my talking to the chipmunks the squirrels, the jays and the ravens with writing....with a more  or less satisfactory result....

i watched some elevating youtube presentations this week..."Breaking the Habitual Pattern" terrence mckenna (1989 one hour) this guy is very enthusiastic about psychedelics used as a tool to change...he also has a good lecture in 'most people see it too late"...also "the human ape" trenton holliday about 45 minutes...he also wrote a book about cro-magnun man...he teaches in new orleans...

ralph nader radio hour #553 should get you angry,,,nasty stuff,,,"The intertwined story of china and mexico in north america" is a good account of an aspect of history which is seldom brought up....the woman lecturer also points out that the japanese  were the first to export tequila hundreds of years ago...as the Chinese became more populous in mexico and the usa they became the "yellow peril" and were much abused..

i watched sabbatical tom in poland and russia...he likes poland a lot and is cautious in russia...he pointed out a unique "burger king" which reminded me of two chicken sandwiches i purchased last week in one of their stores...horrid horrid stuff!  "little chinese everywhere " yan has left the many husbands settlements and went to a higher elevation and has planned a lengthy trip to Mongolia etc...she looked especially happy after leaving the polygamous community and i could not help but wonder if one of the women there with several husbands might have shared one of them with her...just a thought...i think i may be experiencing "phantom limb" syndrome...after nearly two years with little testosterone nostalgia for a missing limb is possible i suppose....

i watched some good music also... the j.j. cale and leon russell in paradise studios was very good as i like both of these guys a lot...i think they are both from oklahoma...i came across a mention of claire chase who plays the contrabass flute...then i found Dai Fujicura (?) Glaicier for bass flute (international contemporary ensemble) which is very interesting...

every time i listen to the news it is overwhelmingly about extreme violence being done to some members of the human species...the species is not endangered but it is certainly endangering...i keep telling myself that i am not there and that is not me...and try not to become to distressed about humans inhumanity to humans

politics is reaching a crescendo in this country as the two candidates for the executive office seem to be about equal in support...the worst fights are always between two evenly matched opponents... i will not vote again as i fall into the category of "NO FIXED ADDRESS"...

i feel compelled to comment on some music which i read about in a popular periodical then I looked up on the internet...a fellow who goes by the moniker "savage 21" who was reported as "authentic" was one performer...ok...then i read about a tommy richman...both of these entertainers are hip hop artists...mr richman uses a lot of "hand jive" in his "million dollar baby' video...perhaps he could do like ms swift has done by putting the lyrics of her songs with her performance of them...i could use some explanations of what the various hand signals etc. mean...but the general "tune" if you could call it that seems to be very very much like what i was seeing 20 years ago in this genre of performance...but i perhaps am not qualified to speak about hip hop or opera as i do not listen to much of either....

some interesting things i heard or read recently...the interest that the usa pays on the national debt is now more than the military budget...columbus may have been a sephardic jew...fentanal deaths in persons over 65 years old has increased by 400% russian citizens are being gifted land in extreme eastern russia to homestead, tic tok is being sued for being too addictive to younger people, as many as 100 raccoons attacked a woman at her home after she feeds a few and others show up for the free grub ( i doubt that 100 raccoons exist in one spot ) jews make up 2.4% of the usa population but get 60% of the hate crimes, nobel prize winner warns against (some more) "thinking machines" or artificial intelligence...(listen if humans are incapable or unwilling to think about the hard reality of surviving on planet earth it might be useful to enlist the help of the objectivity of machines to come up with solutions) hotter summers and more dead people. stronger storms and more dead people (but! once again...human species are not endangered...yet....)

"Authenticity consists in having a true and lucid consciousness of the situation, in assuming the responsibilities and risks that it involves, in accepting it in pride or humiliation, sometimes in horror and hate." Jean Paul Sartre

 

"To be innocent..."

 always liked this cartoon from the new yorker magazine...

where to begin...some years ago i was in an airport headed (i hoped) to a ship for a few days as an extra hand during a hurricane...i had recently purchased a nylon duffle bag to replace the heavy canvas one i usually used...when i put the bag on the conveyor belt to be subjected to electronic scrutiny the woman operating the equipment told me that the bag registered as having explosive material...either on or in it she did not say...i said i recently purchased the bag at a thrift store so i knew nothing of it's history...but i had never carried any explosives in it...i said we needed to call security and check it out...she said that was not necessary but i insisted as i realized she was just another crooked female running a scam...eventually i picked up my bag and headed to my flight....when i returned from this assignment i had my travel papers with me but went to where my apartment was and awaited another assignment...the papers were stamped with seven different travel orders complete with flight charges....someone was pilfering money from the budget by falsifying travel orders...some years before  i was in the Rainbow grocery in San Francisco  (supposedly the largest worker owned organic grocery in the world) a nice store which i frequented when i was in the town...i was standing in the middle of the store when suddenly a woman starts yelling something about a man who was molesting a child...there was this woman and there was this child and there was me...i suddenly realized the scam she was running and she started to laugh...obviously the child was not being harmed in any way but she had done her evil and was now headed to the door...i also left and encountered her still laughing in the parking lot...more recently (yesterday) i was buying a couple of money orders from the post office when when the woman who came in behind me... one of the dozens of women who keep me under constant surveillance  posted that i had bought some money orders...my financial situation is much scrutinized as there are those who think that my getting $110 a month in food stamps makes me a felon as certainly i have hidden wealth...so i have been burned from the east coast to the west coast and everywhere in between...this has been going on for so long that i realized that the number of corrupted people is enormous and should the opportunity to burn me present itself they will certainly not hesitate to do so...yep after more than thirty years of being burned you would think i had grown used to it...but one never does...

"To be innocent is to be not guilty: but to be virtuous is to overcome our evil inclinations." Penn 

"Any system of religion..."

mr kennedy needs to resign his irish terrorist position...fair is fair

dr. hoffman founder of bicycle day on april 19th 1943

this small spider was under a log...smaller than a dime

i always get a thrill when i spot this type of flying insect...reminds me of a horror show creature

well i think the sacred union folks have gone way over the line by saying they do not want any automation which will make them get less money in their greedy pockets...they have no right to  push americans into worse conditions because they refuse to unload ships...to hell with them...same thing the mythic ned lud was supposed to have done ....except he smashed looms with a hammer to stop them from making cheaper cloth than was being made by home weavers...lud lost too...

i was thinking about ms streep who used her celebrity status to bring light to the afghan women whose plight is little better than it was a thousand years ago...USA taxpayers spent nearly a trillion dollars in Afghanistan and this is what they have to show for it...barbarity, stupidity and shame. there are some women who were able to leave the country and went to Scotland to get educated above the 6th grade...oh yeah, the Chinese spent a trillion bucks and built roads harbors and other things useful for many countries to increase their commerce...and! china has 20,000 miles of high speed rail...but wait! the USA has decided to spend 3 billion bucks to build high speed rail between southern california and LAS FRIGGIN VEGAS....WHAT THE HELL!....who comes up with these priorities...the mob!

well the big blow in the southeast USA seems to have once again left the population a bit under prepared....i cannot figure out how a person can look into a camera and say it rained like hell and in the next breath say...we have no water...i used to set out a tarp and collect 3 gallons of water a day from the daily rains in eastern Florida...i see theses places where the whole area is littered with building materials...wood, roofing, plumbing etc...and they just wait for the bulldozer to come and push it into piles and load it onto trucks and haul it to a very expensive landfill...deconstruction is a real occupation in some communities and they have warehouses filled up with good building materials....it should be a criminal act to not recycle...i have spent a fair amount of time in cedar key Florida and was interested to hear the old woman who is the mayor say that they needed to think about where they should rebuild the destroyed buildings....like don't rebuild the grocery store at the bottom of the hill...duh

watched some good youtube last week..."Are we enslaved to one side of the brain? The sickness of modern man" academy of sciences (23 min" also "Your mind is much older than you think" Genetic memory and Carl Jung....this may shed some light on the thinking of the middle eastern combatants....

some good music i encountered was Kris Kristopherson explaining how he came to write "Why me Lord" and singing the song with willie nelson et al...also i came across "The Tubes" live in san Fransisco 1983 (28 min) talk about  a wardrobe malfunction!  i also really like Tom T Hall's song "I miss a lot of trains" Iris dement also does a good job of covering the song so a womans view can also be presented... and his seldom heard song "America the ugly"...he has a few obscure songs like that...

i was wondering about my attraction to the female athletes thinking perhaps it is just soft porn as it was presented on slo mo you tube sites...but once when A. Schopenhauer was sick in bed he had a male attendant and he felt an attraction to him and questioned whether he might be a latent homosexual...but being Schopenhauer he put his considerable brain power on this thought and determined that it was the youth and vitality that he found attractive in his male attendant and i think the youth and vitality of these female athletes is inspiring...i was young and very physically fit for much of my life so i cannot regret that my present less than optimal physical state...should have inhaled less toxins for sure...

"Any system of religion that has anything in it that shocks the mind of a child cannot be a true system."                                                                                                               Thomas Paine 

There is information flowing by us all the time..."

only short-horned lizard spotted recently

this ant was feeding in something on this plant

this ladybug was also feeding on something on this plant

this plant had a couple of dozen of these bees feeding on something which i never figured out what it was...perhaps a fungus on the limbs...i saw no aphids or other micro-organisms which might attract so many enthusiastic bees all feeding feverishly...yet another mystery to be solved...

i got in a spot with pretty good phone connection so i was able to do some research and watch a lot of history...mostly music documentaries but also some philosophy...the latest offering from philosophize this (#211)is good and tommysabbatical is in germany for an hour and trying to learn the language...also ms little chinese everywhere is in a part of china where multiple husbands is allowed in the culture...very interesting...

well just attempted to publish this blog but was unable to do so...when i finally retrieved it most of it was gone....so this is a common thing when i use the library internet...a couple of librarians lost their job in Yuma for breaking into my computer...good riddance...the other patrons are not above stealing my work...

my notebook has some things which seemed important at the time...this among them...$1.14 trillion owed on US credit cards...574 indigenous tribes recognized in the USA...johnny cash now has a statue in the nations capital...27% fewer unexpected deaths in a medical facility when AI was used to manage the cases...rob Bonta the attorney general of caslifornia wants to sue exxon because he says they lied about whether plastic could be recycled...what a waste of taxpayers money..."Because China" is a great documentary maker which has 15 free short, very eye opening films about the impact of china on the rest of the world...i think the company is called "Quartz"...there is a good presentation by ms cortez on the "speech and debate clause" in the US constitution...it may explain why there have been some nasty remarks made by congress people recently. without censure..there is yet another book to add to the "Emmit Till" industry called "The Barn"...i remember reading about two brothers who were white and were tortured and killed in the bush by the black gangsters who were protesting the white minority rule...the usual conflicts...2 russians spend 374 days in space to set new record...

watched "soylent green" (1973) again and thought it was pretty good...a story about too many people on earth so they eat people in the form of soylent green crackers...it stars charlton heston and e.g robinson...i thought it was interesting that citizens could go to a good spot with nice views and some food to end their life...also watched jack nicholson in a 0ne hour movie called "wild Ride" (1960) he is a juvenal delinquent before the hippies and after the beats...he does a good job...

saw "honey jar habit" at rainbow shores a great performence that sounds much like new orleans influenced music...also there are a couple of "music" offerings which are sort of interesting by "not live yet" or "Kraft-Ebings Beard" about 12 minutes each...not really music though...what is definitely music is a live performance by joni mitchell called "california" on dulcimer...very good (1970)

i am seeing more and more sports in the news... society seems obsessed with sports...also i see where gazillions of people attend the great Swiftian performances...a murmeration of swifties can create a hell of a carbon footprint...i would like to see some great film/videos done so an old guy like me can see these extravaganzas without risking life and limb...

got to go miles to go before i sleep...

"There is information flowing by us all the time. Once puberty and hormones pass through the circuit, suddenly those cues have meaning.  They don't have salience until you shift into adolescent phase."  Linda Wilbrect U. Cal. at berkley