"This miserable state..."

"Copyright Bootlegcircus@blogspot.com

trying to make progress in my guitar playing
hired a highly recommended guitar teacher
here he is trying to get me to play the "b" chord
it's too hard for me
when i really need some relief and encouragement
i break out a little ozzie and listen to music made in heaven
no not that ozzie
ozzie kotani hawiian slack string guitar master
i especially like "ku u kika kahiko"  (my old guitar)

i get a hell of a lot of criticism for about every aspect of my life
of course i do  a lot of criticising also
i try to keep from being too distracted by all those who have condemned
me to roast in perdition and i found this description of the
 "stay in line and never talk back champions of mediocrity"
given by Dante
i don't want to only get half-way there

"This miserable state is borne by the wretched souls of those who lived without disgrace
and without praise." 
                                       Dante Alighieri-   "Inferno" referring to the souls of the futile

got to go
getting out of line
as much as i can
mr. cayetano

"It is of the highest importance in the art...

the harassment is increasing

supposed to be a law against harassment

and bullying

goes with the whistle blowing

i suppose

been to the fbi

and the us attorney

they just laughed in my face

my room was entered recently

and my property stolen

my vehicle was entered also

and my property was stolen

said it was government employees

goes with the whistle blowing

i suppose

"Government can be a kind of gangsterism and is in Russia

and is likely to be here if we don't take care of ourselves

pretty carefully." Frank Lloyd Wright (1958 T.V. interview)

listening to a report on the radio

concerning an exhibit somewhere

about thomas jefferson

and his slaves

slavery

been around a long time

spartans had 'em

really rough on 'em

greeks had 'em

back when socrates was alive

free gentlemen of color had 'em

in new orleans

back in the 18th & 19 century

irish came over to the usa

as indentured servants

some asians still do

and some europeans

so i was wondering about

people who are in business

you know the successful ones

who allow workers to work for

say $7.25  per hour

and people who allow wait staff

to work for $2.50 per hour

plus gratuities

they will not allow that in europe

i have heard

i wonder if squirmin herman

ever advocated for better wages

for restaurant workers

tough work

but not slavery

by todays definition

 "When you see a situation you can not understand,

look for the financial interest."  Tom L. Johnson

been mostly staying in the swamps

real relaxing mostly

listen to the radio

lots of news and such

dead folks

news seems to be a lot about

dead folks

heard mike mullen say

a while back that

no person who serves in combat

will ever be the same

he should know

heard the commander in chief

say he thinks maybe

four thousand jobs will be

made available to veterans

as policemen and firemen

better reconsider that

chief

i wonder why the government

affords me no help

for my serious problem

with being harassed

they can kiss my ass

"It is of the highest importance in the art of detection to be able to recognize out of a number of facts which are incidental and which are vital...I would call your attention to the curious incident of the dog in the night-time."

"The dog did nothing in the night-time."

"That was the curious incident." 

Arthur Conan Doyle "The Memoirs of Sherlock Holmes"

                                    "Silver Blaze" (1893)

Panem et Circuses (Bread and Circuses) Satires, X Juvenal

mr cayetano

"The use of force alone is but temporary.

   

listened to an interview with the

chief law enforcement officer

for this parish

sometimes known as

the high sheriff

interviewer asked

chief law enforcement officer

 why this area

has the 3rd highest homicide rate

in the nation

drugs

was his reply

drugs

i had just eaten a motrin for back pain

i looked around to see

if i was going to be murdered

or if i might murder someone

apparently not

been reading in a book called

ceremonial chemistry

about

the ritual persecution of drugs,

addicts and pushers

by thomas szasz

he says

...for the facts here, quite simply, are that some

people want to take some drugs which some

others do not want them to take. The drug users-

called "drug abusers" or "drug addicts" by the authorities-

regard their drugs as their allies, and those who try to deprive

them of their drugs as their adversaries; whereas the politicians,

psychiatrists, and ex-addicts- who call themselves

"experts on drug abuse and drug addiction"- regard the prohibited

drugs as their enemies, the persons who use them as their patients

and their own coercive interventions as "treatments".

a fellow asked me for a cigarette this morning

i smugly told him i don't smoke anymore

then i went to the store and bought myself a

jar of instant coffee

for a quick fix

i found this info somewhere

17th century prince of the petty state

of waldeck pays ten thalers to anyone

who denounces a coffee drinker

and this

17th cent. russian czar michael federovitch executes

anyone on whom tobacco is found.

czar alexi mikhailovitch rules that anyone caught

with tobacco should be tortured until he gives

up the name of his supplier.

damn

the chief law enforcement officer says

he has increased

boots on the ground

to help stop the murders

boots on the ground

that's a military term

not a peace officer term

read in the national review

jan. 23, 2012

an article by james lileks

that there are now over

40,000 statutes on the law books

at the state level

he called it the

incremental criminalization

of some element of life

damn

we're screwed

i think the

chief law enforcement officer

only got half of the answer to

the interviewers question

the whole answer would be

drug laws

"Dilige et quod vis fac"

"Love and do what you will." St. Augustine

"The use of force alone is but temporary.

It may subdue for a moment; but it does not remove the necessity of subduing again: and a nation is not governed, which is perpetually to be conquered."   Burke, Edmund

this place is a circus          looking at the stern of the oil supply boat just before
                                           going back to secure the vessel to the oil rig with a line
                                           all in a days work...unless you get washed overboard!

mr. cayetano

"Death destroys a man:..."

watched another documentary last night

second episode of ascent of man

by j. bronowski

the harvest of the seasons

he spent time with the bakhtiari nomads

from iran

sheepherders living in the mountains

traveling 250 miles twice a year

on foot and donkey and

swimming many cold rivers

with their livestock

and then bronowski spent time in jerico

where agriculturalist were born

he pointed out that nomads don't invent

because they are too busy gettin' a livin'

whereas agriculturalist invent things

because they have some free time

to think

they invent civilization

yeah right

then he mentioned that the mongols

were nomads and they participated

in a co-operative form of theft

from the agriculturalist

that co-operative form of theft thing

seems to have flourished

bronowski pointed out that among the bakhtiari

when the old

could no longer cross the rivers

they stayed behind to die

makes ya think

or should

life is as fragile as milkweed down

death is certain

think i'll watch the new documentary

about the roma tonight

the gypsies

something comforting knowing

there are still nomads on this planet

not inventing civilization

 "Death destroys a man:

the idea of death saves him."

                           E.M. Forster

got to get

back to the circus

mr. cayetano

"He has outsoared the shade..."

i am sitting at a small table in a smokey bar
in new orleans
i clutch a beer bottle in my hand
while the singer in the band sings a few notes
as i chat with a lovely woman across the table from me
 from behind the bar a floozy watches the crowd

a man says cut

the singer stops singing
the water vapor smoke begins to thin
the beer bottle is empty and has been
and i am still 24 years sober
the lovely woman is happily married
but not to me
the floozy behind the bar
is a stunningly beautiful redhead
who breaks the heart of men like me
for a hobby

this is the business of illusion
selling illusion to people
who are already living an illusion
a mirror reflecting a mirror reflecting a mirror

we do it three more times
then the director thanks us
and we walk two blocks back to the
building to get out paperwork signed
then catch the van to the parking lot

i wonder if i have enough gas to get home
and if the 6 bucks i have in cash will help if i don't
my heart hurts a little
but it is not broken
yet



He has outsoared the shade of
 our night;
Envy and calumny and hate and
pain,
And that unrest which men miscall
delight,
Can touch him not and torture not
again;
From the contagion of the worlds slow stain
He is secure, and now can never
mourn
A heart grown cold, a head grown
grey in vain."
                       Percy Bysshe Shelly
                                 1792-1822

back to the circus

mr. cayetano

“True guilt is guilt to the obligation...

the notion of guilt sometimes enters

into my mind

there are all kinds of things

people seem to think I need to

be, act, do, say, etc.

been reading fewer books lately

can’t really make any excuses

 thinking maybe I could say

 i’ve been reading a lot on-line

yeah right

to paraphrase truman capote’s comment

on kerouac’s  book ‘on the road’

that’s not reading

that’s surfing

see the queers can get married now

in california

good for them

serves them right

now when I go to wombat park to ride the bike

i have to worry about being kidnapped

by a queer when I go to the bathroom

and taken to california

and forced to marry him

pretty funny

the vigilantes stake out the bathroom

and send someone around

to make sure no homosexualites try

to snatch some innocent child

what a joke

they are vigilante fanatics

“Does it really matter what these affectionate people do- so long as they don’t do it in the street and frighten the horses! Mrs. Patrick Campbell

(referring to rumours of a homosexual liaison between two actors.)

turned on the tele a few days ago and

watched with horrified fascination as one

person after another paraded up to the podium

to declare themselves the most “conservative”

candidate, commentator or whatever

these people are fanatics

scares the shit out of me

definitely time to start the

mushroom tea party

all candidates will give speeches naked

all candidates will take several bong hits

before giving a speech

all candidates will read ginsburg's 

howl 

aloud before beginning a speech

all candidates will sing lennon's 

give peace a chance 

before giving a speech

is it just my imagination or does that coulter

woman have a decidedly saurian look

watched one of my favorite tele stations yesterday

c-span

several hours of congressional interviews with

the nations top intelligence chiefs

cia

fbi

military

they seemed worried

lots of threats to our freedom

they say

 seemed like a lot

of pretzel logic to me

as the hearings ended

mr clapper (does that name ring a bell) (military)

& mr mueller (fbi)

congratulated each other on being marines

they seemed like fanatics

 “From fanaticism to barbarism is only one step.”

                                  Denis Diderot (1713-1784)

 “True guilt is guilt to the obligation one owes to oneself to be oneself. False guilt is guilt felt at not being what other people feel one ought to be or assume that one is.” 

                                                                        R.D. Laing

anyhow

happy valentines day

mr. cayetano

"All men dream but not equally."

i had a dream

some more

again

the earth opened up and swallowed my truck

the truck turned over and spilled

everything into the hole

in the earth

i barely escaped

i wept bitterly

lots of significant imagery

what’s it all mean mr. natural

went to the irs last week

waited in line to see the guy at the desk

two guys ahead of me

they go up to the desk

they are deaf

they speak in sign language

they start out calmly

then become increasingly animated

soon they are yelling

with their hands

screaming

pointing at their paperwork

eventually they become disgusted

and leave

a lot was said but

not a sound was heard

i get my advice from the desk and leave

i return to the irs this week

i get in line

 the guy behind the desk

gives me the hand gun

you know he makes a gun with his hand

and points it at me

i’m being shot

by the federal employee

he is black

if i were in his seat and he were

where I am

i would lose my job

or at least be reprimanded

where’s the equality

i am inspired by others

listening to a woman on the radio

who says we have to address inequality

the bigotry

the slander

and speak out against it

dr. mary frances berry

an inspiration

i am subjected to harassment daily

on the job

at the store

in my home

i am not loved

the local constabulary

does not love me

the long arms of the law want

to put the squeeze on me

sid the squid and his squidlettes hate me

but i am inspired

i must persevere

at my job as an extroid i am

subjected to harassment

the old girls sit around and malign me

they say things of a sexual nature

things that would get me fired

if i said them

they lack sex appeal

“Woman’s virtue is mans greatest invention.”

                                  Cornelius Otis Skinner

i have been subjected to harassment

and even threats of violence

for speaking out against persons who

are seeking unwarranted entitlement

these particular people are becoming

increasingly dominant in business

they seek unconstitutional favor from government

they say they have a long tradition of aggressive

behavior and domination and superiority

above all they extol loyalty

“My honor is my loyalty”

         motto of the Schutzstaffel (German SS)

these people have become a fungus in society

semper fungus

i am told that if I do not behave

according to their rules

i will not have a roof

or a floor

or a door

or windows

and my legs will be cut off

and I will get no time

and my color is no good

and on

and on

and on

who are these people

do they know I live in a country

where men and women have

fought

and died

and are dying every week

to protect my freedom

that’s not a dream

that’s reality

dead people

who were told to fight

and die

to protect my freedom

i must do my part

by demanding and fighting

for my freedom

in this country

or their lives were given in vain

i  must speak out against tyranny

and the daily abuses of power

we as a nation are being subjected to

the vain notion that some people

deserve better treatment than others

we must fight against the tyrants

freedom is always under siege

it’s not a dream

All men dream but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes to make it possible.

T.E. Lawrence

i need to go

back to the circus

mr. cayetano